Parrallel Lives.

I've always wondered if we live parrallel lives, that is, other separate lives but at the same time on another frequency, on another plane and have always suspected that we do and I have been reading and found the other day it is speculated that each of us do indeed have 12 parrallel lives going on at the same time, perhaps even in different time periods, and I think at times they inter-sect too, for me anyway I think it's when I'm dreaming, esp. as I often come across the same people in my dreams and have the feeling they're my "friend group" and also have experiences where I go somewhere and it's familiar and I "know" the place like I've been there before even though I haven't or I recognize someone and feel I knew them even though they're a complete stranger, etc, things like that although that could also come from a past life,too. I just think that there's alot more out there than just this, this one life, this existance, and I've had so many I guess what you would call spiritual or supernatural experiences there's no doubt in my mind. I also had dreams the other night: one hearing It's something for the Cabal although not clear on what it's referring to, and another I was informed I am One of those people that hovers in-between Heaven and Hell... and I have to say that one really scared me and shook me up! I've always had a strong faith in God and been searching for truth my whole life and always followed Him and tried to do the right thing and be a moral, ethical, decent person and stand up for what's right and defend the oppressed and help the needy.....I hope that's "enough" but I do worry as my entire life I've never been  "good enough" , been accepted, been chosen, picked, etc. and this  is the one thing that really matters the most!!

Yesterday my mother also( foolishly!) put a paper plate on the stove  ( I'm sure you can see where this is going) when she was frying something up and accidently turned on the wrong element and it caught fire and smoke went all thru the entire house and I had to open all the doors to let the smoke out, the 13 YR old when he helps unload groceries from the car and bring them into the kitchen to be put away also has this "habit" of taking stuff he knows I like or that is mine ( such as mango, chocolate stuff, my wrap, etc.) and conveniently "hiding" it( such as behind a chair, under a table, "accidently fallen" somehwere, etc.) so I can't find it or think it was never picked up, and the 17 YR old has to delay her college plans due to the pandemic too; she was to graduate highschool this year and write her SAT and go off to school to study Interior Design (my BFF has a degree in tha,too!) but now post-poned until next year and she decided to just work an extra year instead and save up $$$ for school....not wanting to have to do it online but to have the full college experience.....but what if this is  going to be the New Normal from now on? Then what?

Today my poor Buddy-Boy doesn't feel good. He's walking slowly and limping and could hardly walk this morning when he went out  to pee and I had to carry him and he has a fever as well and my abdomenal pain has been worse for the past few days,too ; we're like a couple of old cronies hobbling along side-by-side, but I notice my arthritis pain seems a bit better so maybe my new medication is starting to work, either that, or because I've been doing more of this:

I got more fresh new rolled doobies and buying pre-rolled costs no more from my medical supplier than it does to buy dried flower(unlike off the gov't sites: ONE joint costs a whopping 16$!!!) and I completely suck at rolling and my arthritis doesn't help. It generally starts at around 10$ a gram and they were 22$ for 5 joints and each one was 1/2 gram so that works out the same and this way I get to enjoy the feeling of smoking a doobie(I like the bong ok but there's just something extra soothing and relaxing about smoking a joint) and they even come with a filter,too, something I'm not used to, so it makes me feel a little spoiled! I also heard a radio ad for a contest where you can win 500 K and they said for your Dream Home and I thought if it was in Toronto it would only pay for half as the average house there cost 1 MILLION$ so you'd have to decided if you want to live on the top floor or the bottom floor, and they said here realeastate is booming and it's a seller's market with multiple offers and prices going even 100K over asking, making it impossible for first-time buyers to enter the market even in this area now,too, and Trump got impeached finally too which is good as he's dangerous but I don't find myself gleefully celebrating though as he's lost everything and to celebrate someone's utter defeat is just plain mean. As for myself, I live inside my own head, and I wonder too what point it's ok to give up on happiness?