Worry And Concern.

I'm really worried and concerned about Buddy. He still doesn't feel well like yesterday and can hardly walk; he just painfully slowly limps along and even to do a shit he won't hunch over like he normally does but just sort of stands there and lets the turds fall out of his ass and he has a fever and just slept pretty much all of the day yesterday and was extra cuddly and snuggly and always wanted to cuddle with me(I have no problem with!) and he has this sad, downcast look on his face and I also noticed his abdomenal hernia is bigger and his belly keeps making loud gurgling noises and when I touched his belly he flinched so he's in pain and I'm giving him CBD oil for the pain yet he is still eating and drinking and he also koften will stare straight ahead and look intently at something too but nothing's there, at least not that I can see, unless he sees an angel or something and the past couple of days I have often felt a cool breeze pass by as well, indoors, inside  the house,too, which can indicate the presence of a spirit, so it makes me fearful that he may be near the end, that he doesn't have much time left and it could be any day now(God sent me an angel but when his time is up He will recall him back Home) and to the world he's a dog but to me he's the world and he's my everything, my world, my life, the only one that loves me, that cuddles me, my only companion, and having him in my life is the best thing that ever happened  to me in my entire life, and I can't keep losing everyone I love!!!

I also noticed I have a canker sore on my upper lip underneath. I am prone to them but haven't had one in years but they are painful little buggers, and now since my diuretic dose has been doubled to 40 mg up from 20 mg it's really working now and making a difference in my massive water retention: my hands aren't so swollen and puffy now and when I clasp them together I can actually feel bones and tendons now and it doesn't feel all squishy like marshmallows anymore, and I no longer have 3 "chins" either or look 7 months' prego( my belly also shrunk way down) and even the swollen ankles are much, much better; not totally, completely normal but at least now I can actually see ankle bone! The most common cause of such severe edema is either heart or kidney failure,too, and my mother asked if they end up forcing everyone to get the Corona virus vaccine will I end up surrendering or getting sent to internment camps and I said I'm still not going to get it no matter what and it may very well end up being the Mark Of The Beast  and my motto is LIVE FREE OR DIE  and I'd kill myself first before I'd ever live under tyranny. The 26 YR old also has 2 places he plays Dungeons & Dragons  as well; at 2 family's houses and now both of them are too scared ( they used to still play there "underground" before, last year) to continue anymore; one is scared of the virus and the other is scared of being fined if they get caught breaking lockdown rules. It's just so sad how everyone lives in fear now, of eachother, of the authrorities, and of the virus. He also said for jiu-jitsu they're arranging to hold it underground at someone's house in secret. Good for them! STICK IT TO THE MAN!!!