Today is Valentine's Day, a day we don't really celebrate other than the fact I like to get the chocolates the day after for 50%-75% off although it can't be tomorrow as it's a holiday and all the stores are closed. I sent my hubby a card by e-mail but so far anyway nothing from him and I can remember our first Valentine's Day he went all out with chocolates, a cute stuffed plush toy( never too old for stuffed toys!) and had the kitchen all festooned with pink and red balloons but that was in the beginning when he was just acting; pretending to be someone he wasn't, trying to fool me into thinking he was this funny nice guy when really what was secretly brewing underneath and being well hidden was a narcisstic cold cruel, vengeful, mind f*cking gaslighting, emotionless( other than anger) heartless, calculating arrogant, selfish mean guy who can get incredibely angry and violent. If only I knew back then. Yesterday he was mad and sulky and whining andf complaining too saying he hates watching TV with me too because I always mute the commercials and "ruin" it for him, but isn't that what the remote is for?
This morning when I had Buddy out early to pee my hubby also hopped into the car and went out which was odd since nothing's even open this early, esp. on a Sunday, so my guess is he probably went to his mistress to drop off her Valentine's gift so he can put on the same act for her too like he once did for me, trying to convince her what a "nice" guy he is but as time goes on she'll find out soon enough too because the facade can't last forever and eventually the mask slips off. You can only maintain the charade for so long. I actually feel sorry for her, not knowing what she's getting into. Meeting him was my biggest regret and ruined my life. We both hate eachother but we maintain the fake image of the Happy Family (even though the kids know) until the kids are all grown and moved out because they deserve to grow up with both parents.
\Yesterday was also my mother's wedding anniversary on the 13th and I asked her why didn't they just wait one more day and get married on the 14th, for Valentine's Day and she said it was on a Sunday and apparantly the priests won't marry you on a Sunday and that was her biggest regret and mistake too and she says lots of bad things happened to her on the 13th too, it doesn't have to be on Friday the 13th, just on the 13th. Lots og bad things always happen to us anyway regardless; we just seem to be cursed with bad luck, no matter what day it is, and I saw somewhere there's a link between epilepsy and bipolar as well so I wonder if maybe that's why I have seizures, although mine only happen at night during my sleep and my EEG said no epilepsy...
I can't believe either that asshole Trump was acquitted in his impeachment trial but there's always been 2 different "justice" systems for the rich and elite VS the rest of society and it pisses me off. They always go free, just like cops do. Last night my mother was also loudly slurping the bottom of her drink with a straw and she used to yell at me when I did that as a kid! I guess it's "Do as I say, not as I do?" Hypocrite.
UPDATE:
I just went into the other room and much to my surprise I found red roses and chocolates from my hubby! I have to say I wasn't expecting it and I haven't received flowers in years! What a nice, unexpected surprise!!
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