The Nightmare

I had a really scary nightmare last night that even woke me up in fear at 2 am: in it I had gone into a nearby town that's a 20 min drive away and somehow Buddy had snuck out of the house going after me and he found me all that distance away, some 30 km away or so , and he had been attacked by something and was barely alive; all his feet were gone, part of his vertebrae was exposed, , his ears had been chewed off and his eyes were gone but when he found me he "ran" over as fast as he could, painfully limping over, tail wagging a mile a minute and fell into my arms where he died, but he died looking for me and loving me. It was so scary and I was so relieved when I woke up and found out it wasn't real but just a scary dream and he was still alive and well and snoring peacefully asleep beside me. He's more than just a dog; he's my best friend, my soul-mate, my co-pilot, my side-kick, the best thing in my life and that ever happened to me and my only regret is that I didn't have him sooner; I didn't get him until he was 8 years old. I also saw another blood stain on my (new!) bedsheets(I got for a good price of 15$ at Wal-Mart  and usually those suckers are 50$-75$!)  I assumed was from his loose tooth but then I saw some also on the bottom of my PJ pants too so is it from my butt? Do I have another colon polyp again perhaps? His arthritic bad leg is also turning inwards now too and he limps even more,the poor thing. Getting old really sucks!

The 17 YR old also asked me if she can borrow my beloved luggage for her trip and I said yes but reluctantly, on condition that she comes back and returns it  as that's my only suitcase and I paid a small fortune for it and it's funky and I really like it. I paid 200$ just for the one suitcase as what happened was my original one( which I also loved and was funky; 60's style colourful psychedelic circles and other shapes, this one is red and has stickers from all over the world) broke right at the airport on the way to one of my many cruises ; the entire zipper and front part broke and wouldn't stay closed(NOT a good thing when it's getting tossed around and abused in an airplane's cargo hold)my typical luck but luckily they had a luggage shop at the airport so I could quickly get a replacement but it cost 200$ but what other choice did I have? I desperately needed  a suitcase!  The 14 YR old also looks like Harry Potter and every time I tell him to do any chores or to even help out in any way he tells me to (1) shut up (2) go kill myself  and yesterday he went over to his friend's house for most of the day so I got a nice quiet break too and their family is sooo scared of the Corona Boogeyman too they even wear masks inside their house!

I find it hypocritical too how Canada has the nerve to sanction and scold China for their abhorrent treatment of the Uyghurs (which is unacceptable and should be called-out) when they themselves have tried to commit genocide as well on this country's Native People so they're one to talk, what can they say, and I came across a trivia question that asked What do you call someone that gives information to the police on someone to aid in an investigation?  and so I thought it was "snitch" "fink" or "Stool pigeon"  but it turned out that the answer was "informant." Oh, well, whatever,...synonyms, you know....My chocolate is also the one thing that I won't share; I'll even share my weed but NOT my  chocolate, that's the one thing that's off-limits and I will guard like Buddy guards his toys(I'm the only one he'll let near), and last night as I was in bed trying to sleep my abdomenal pain was sooooo bad it felt like lightening bolts or something shooting thru me and I had to take several hits on my vape pen to relieve the pain and I put cold sore cream on my sun rash/hives and it'salmost gone now so maybe it's the Herpes virus? I do get alot of cold sores on my lips...

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