Smoothie.

I made a nice chocolate yougurt milkshake/smoothie for the heat but no one else liked it( even though I thought it was good) so I got to drink it all!  I was also soooo sweaty yesterday more than I've ever been in my entire life; sweat was pouring down off me and into my eyes and mouth and my pillowcase and shirt was soaked it was unreal, my hormones of menopause perhaps or maybe a pituitary tumour, who knows but it was insane! I had to come inside and lay down on my bed topless with the A/C cranked up! I felt so sweaty, dizzy, restless and "creepy" all day, right from when I first woke  up, I didn't even go out in the sun all day but just stayed in the shade. Whatever it is sure is hitting me hard and taking a toll on me and I was more disoriented and confused than normal too, holy shit!  A robin also came up to me when I was sitting outside in the shade on the back porch as well making me wonder if that's perhaps some sort of harbinger or soemthing,too?

Hey! Check this out! I noticed this in my Facebook  feed last night: does it look weird to you,too, or just to me? Am I just seeing things again or are the words all scrambled to you,too? The top one should say Friend Requests and the bottom one should read Your Pages  but the letters are all jumbled up, which is lately how I've been seeing things at times with my "foggy" addled mixed-up brain so I copied them to see if it's just me or if this time it really is actually a glitch and maybe other people can see it,too or if it's just me again....At times I can have a hard time distinguishing what's real and what's imaginary my mind plays tricks on me and I need someone else to be a "witness" and to "verify" that what I saw or heard was in fact real. I also saw someone online mention they're quitting smoking and will now save 450$ a month  on cigarettes! It costs that much? Holy f*ck! How can they even afford it? That's more than 4 times a month what I spend on my medical marijana(but probably about the same what the 19 YR old spends on Starbucks ,ha,ha!) and you can lease a car for that! OMG! They should save it and invest it. The 18 YR old also got a job at a fast-food place while she's in Vancouver and they're thinking of getting a cat,too. Ugh. I've never been a "Cat person". I don't like cats. They're so aloof and freeloaders and not loyal and loving companions like dogs are. They just use you for your food.

Buddy's last loose tooth at the front finally fell out the other day as well and it was so loose it just fell out with no blood and now all his rotten teeth are gone he no longer has his legendary fetid Death Breath  he once did that I joked was his secret weapon and he looked so sad yesterday too, he had such a sad look on his face and was moping around and sulking all day and he wouldn't leave my side and just sat there beside me in guarding position all day, so does he maybe know something the rest of us don't, and he is my rock; my anchor,too, the one that keeps me grounded so I don't drift away, the one that keeps me going each day, keeps me holding on and gets me thru and keeps me alive, he's my co-pilot, my shadow, and we're 2 halves and together we make a whole complete piece. You also never forget your first dog, your first concert, your first crush, your first kiss, your first love, your first sex, your first baby, your first house, your first flight, your first trip, your first joint, etc. memories last forever, unless Alzheimer's kicks in, of course, and then you don't even have that anymore.

You have to learn to love people for who they are, not who you want them to be.