Rememberings.

I was just remembering the other day when I was 12 and we first moved into our old Toronto house ( of all the many places I've lived that house has always been the one that most feels like Home to me) how we'd often take our trusty old bundle-buggy and walk a couple of blocks up to our local Pop Shoppe (which we first found out about from our cousins who had one in their town) and we'd get 3-4 or so cases of pop mainly cola and cream soda but the odd lime, orange, and root beer, load it up and haul it back home. They came in cases in glass bottles and looked exactly as shown here and once empty you'd return the empty ones and get new ones.For some reason that stands out as a distinct memory and I remember as well we got our artifical Christmas tree the same way too, hauling it home from the store on Coxwell Ave. a few blocks from our house in the bundle-buggy and that's also how we got our weekly groceries and our laundry,too. We sure got lots of use out of that old thing! I even remember the cardboard box square laid across the bottom too to prevent small things from falling thru the gaps at the bottom.Lately I often have frequent recurring dreams as well I move back to our old Toronto house as well, just as it was when we left in 1984 for L.A. Another good reason for me to leave North America,too: ragweed is most plentiful here than anywhere else and it's the worst of all my allergies. My cough has been extra bad the past few days as well so either I'm getting a cold, it's just allergies, or I smoke a hella lotta weed.

We're also going to get some of the Tim Horton's Smile Cookies since all the proceeds go to charity( and God loves the charitable) and my hubby asked us What is the least spoken language? and I guessed probably some 'dead" language like latin, Sumerian,Aramaic or something, or if he means now then maybe Welsh or something and my mother said English ( really? That's the second most-spoken language, after Mandarin)  and it turned out to be Sign language( ha,ha, trick question!) and my mother cooked dinner only for my hubby yesterday too and when I said What about the rest of us? she scoffed, You're capable!  and I told her, So is he! then she sneered, He's your slave! He does everything for you! which isn't true; all I need him for is transportation since I don't drive( but then again neither does she and she needs him for rides,too!) which isn't much other than medical appt's and the odd trip to the store for essentials but I hardly go out much, and he'smore her slave than he is mine; this is her, Go to the pharmacy and pick up my pills. Go to Tim Horton's and get me some donuts. Go to DQ and get me a banana split. Go to McDonald's and get me an iced coffee. Go to A&W and get me a big breakfast.etc. and she says jump!  and he asks How high?  and he never says "no" to her or stands up to her, tells her off, defends me, etc. he's like her obedient little toady  so she really can't say anything about me or anyone else.

This is also the perfect song I dedicate to Buddy:

You’ll Be in My Heart

Phil Collins

Come stop your crying
It will be alright
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
From all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small
You seem so strong
My arms will hold you
Keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart
Always
Always

I also saw on Quora someone said their mother was lost to depression and is unable to form meaningful relationships and it sounds like me and something that my kids might say and sometimes I wonder if maybe they might even be on there or it's just a coincidence, and it pisses me off that the 20 YR old (who had been studying fashion design) has had to put it on hold as due to the COVID Scamdemic they're only doing it online so she has to wait to go back when normal regular in-class classes resume and also the 18 YR old has to wait to start her continuing education as well(she wants to study Interior Design) until regular in-class resumes as well so basically their education, future careers and lives are just on hold  in the meantime(and who knows for how long) until all this ridiculous shit is over with and for now they're working and making $$$ for school whenever it resumes back to normal. The UK has also abandoned their vaccine passport policy due to public back-lash so hopefully here they will,too, and my hubby jeered, I thought you said it was the New World Order? How can it be reversed?  and I told him that people can resist and stand up and fight against it and put a stop to it; we don't have to just roll over and accept it, and let's face it, there's alot more of us than there are of them, and the Conservative leader O'Toole said 6 years ago he at least used to respect PM Trudeau but not anymore; now he's lost any respect he used to have for him as a person and that pretty much sums it up exactly how I feel,too, and he also said that Everyone knows a 'Trudeau' in their lives: rich, entitled, only looking out for Number One. Yesterday also saw mass anti-vaccine mandate/passport protests all across the country  too so people are finally waking up and fighting back and based on election lawn signs I've seen it looks like hardly anyone will be voting Liberal (Trudeau) either! Good!!

"Those who would give up essential Liberty, to purchase a little temporary Safety, deserve neither Liberty nor Safety." - Ben Franklin