Yesterday my hubby surprised me with these: sunflowers! He hardly ever gets me flowers, although I did have them on the list but even so....That's also one thing I want and want to do,too:
I want to do a painting of sunflowers; an oil painting on canvas.
I've always loved art and doing art( drawing, painting, sculpture) and I haven't done it in so long(raising kids and homeschooling takes up alot of time,and I used to do gourmet baking and I played guitar and violin before I had kids,too) but the longing is back once again and I have the time, I just have to get the supplies I no longer have anymore.
A flocked Christmas tree.
Like seen here. I've always loved(and wanted one) and when we got a new tree last year I even told my hubby that's what I wanted but of course he claimed he "never'heard' me" (yeah....right...like always) and just brought home plain green one and snarled if I want a flocked one then go buy one myself......so I'm thinking that this year I'm going to do just that. There's just something about them that looks so "magical", so fairytale-like, so whimsical, that kind of breathtaking beauty you can just sit there and stare at for hours.It costs the same as a monthly hydro bill which I always pay anyway so for once I'll just skip it and buy this instead and someone else can pay the hydro bill( my mother or hubby) and maybe also that way they'll appreciate me more too and see how much I really do contribute the one time that I don't and realize how much the bills I cover really cost and that I don't just do nothing.
A cannabis Advent calendar.
I've wanted to get one for years but never did because they're so expensive( 200$) although you do also get a gram of weed a day for a month all December counting down to Christmas,too, so that's 30 gm of weed, which normally would go for 300$ so it's actually quite a deal....This year I'm finally going to go for it!
Bob Marley wall calendar.
I get one every year, it's not exactly a treat or a luxury item and it only costs around 20$ but for some reason this year I haven't been able to find it so it feels like it. I get this one for my little nook in the rec-room where I have my computer and a sunflower one for my bedroom wall to cheer me up first thing in the morning because sunflowers are so joyful and make me happy. I try to find hippo ones but that's next to impossible. I was only able to twice and one I had to pay 50$ for it so it ended up being a Christmas present. I also want to be pretty, happy,and find romantic love,too, but I know that's NOT going to happen, or at least not in this lifetime,anyway, not on this side of Heaven. I also had a revelation of a sort too that Heaven is actually just this world inverted and I can't understand either how so many people grow up fearing God and Jesus; I always saw them as Friends, and I saw a flock of geese starting to head South too and I wonder if they need a vax passport too or be refused entry? One of my cousins in Europe her son also got a full-time job at an accounting firm, and we had to clear out the deep freezer to make room for the turkeys for Thanksgiving next week so we get to eat all the food,and today's a dull rainy day Buddy and I just stayed in bed longer, lingering, cuddling, not wanting to get up, and my abdomenal pain's still so bad it keeps waking me up and I'm all sweaty, feel sick, and faint and can hardly even stand up and I had to smoke twice the weed I normally do to handle the pain. I'd normally go to the ER but it just simply hurts too much to even sit up, let alone sit in the waiting room for hours. I just want to go lay down and die.
“In a room where people unanimously maintain a conspiracy of silence, one word of truth sounds like a pistol shot.” ― Czesław Miłosz
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