Daily Life.

Not too much going on. We got a bit more snow overnight after it rained yesterday getting up to 3 C (yes, you read that right; rain,yuck!!) and today supposed to get a snowstorm with weather advisory and my mother must have diabetic neuropathy as both her feet hurt and were cold and purple, I mean literally purple so her circulation is bad and my hubby went out and bought her this special diabetic foot massager that cost over 200$ which surprised me but I guess he figures it's like an investment; if anything happens to her than he'll  have to step up and pay for pretty much everything himself, and he got take-out at Harveys as well but of course didn't check the order before he left the restaurant like I always do(because I know I'm going to get ripped-off) to make sure it's the right thing and of course my mother's hamburger was missing and he actually went all the way back  to get it,too, but if it was mine  he wouldn't have; he would have just said too bad or to "be grateful I have the onion rings and shut up".because I'm not "worth" the effort and it hurts to realize too that my family thinks so little of me. Child # 7 also turns 24 this week and sometimes I think as well the best way to love them( since they seem to think I've "ruined" them) is to just let them go and stay out of their lives. Having Asperger's also feels like the rest of the world was given a handbook of life and I wasn't, on what's socially acceptable and what isn't,and on social cues  and body language and how to read them,etc. and that I was absent that day when that lesson was taught. It's like everyone else all belongs to this secret club I'm not a member of.

Sad,too: my friend O( from grade 10) his brother died and from what he said he hinted that it might have been suicide,too. It's also unusual that both  his brother and his sister are both gay,(and born in Israel,too)and lately not only is my abdomen and back pain bad and worsening but also my stomach as well and it's nauseated from the pain( and I'm NOT normally a "barfy" person unless I'm prego or have a Flu or in extreme pain) and I wonder if maybe I really do  have some kind of cancer then and it's spreading, or maybe it's just my liver acting-up again(it's in the stomach area) esp. too since  the whites of my eyes are turning yellow again(jaundice) and maybe that's also why my eyes are often dry and itchy and my stomach area is so bloated and swollen too(above the belly button) it looks like I'm 6 month's prego! I also saw Make Canada Free! painted on the side of a regular citizen's van which inspired me and now the mainstream media isn't even mentioning  the trucker's Freedom Convoy still in Ottawa in the news anymore, as if it doesn't even exist anymore, thinking it will make it go away, ignoring our voices for freedom,and now they're being called the Anti-vax protesters  too even though they're NOT "anti-vax"; they're anti-vax mandate ; you can get the vaccien if you so choose; but the gov't shouldn't force you to get it; it shouldn't be mandated and you shouldn't be punished for not  complying, like losing your job or being excluded from society like not being allowed into a restaurant or your kids not being able to go to their activities.We're anti mandate, and now the UK, Scandinavia, and several other European countries have already lifted all their COVIDianRegime resctrictions, mandates, lockdowns, curfews, vaccine passports, etc. so hopefully this country can take notice and follow,too, although I bet it(and Australia; the worst and 2 most Fascist)will be the last one to do so, if it ever does...All we ask for is our freedom and our lives back. Is that really so "much" to ask?

My life has killed the light in my soul.