CODA.

Yesterday I watched the movie CODA (which means Child Of Deaf Adults) as generally the winner of the Best Picture  are deep, meaningful filsm, as opposed to the usual Hollywood crap of car chases, blow 'em up, cheap thrills sort of thing and it was good. It was a story of a teen girl who was the only hearing memeber of her family; both her parents and her older brother are all deaf so she acts as their translator and they heavily depend on her to function in the outside world, esp. in their livelihood as fishermen. They live in a sleepy little fishing town where she is expected to stay and help her family only she has bigger dreams; she loves music and singing and it makes her feel free( something I can really understand; she has the music in her) something her deaf family can't understand, but she has this wonderful highschool music teacher who sees her talent and potential and brings her out of her shell and works with her to develop it(as well as her confidence) and to qualify her to audition for a university music scholorship, and she feels torn between the obligation of remaining at home to help her family and the family business and going off to university to pursue her own dreams. I liked it. It was heartwarming and they even had a messy house like us,too! She was embarrassed of her deaf and not financially well-off family, who are often made fun of, but they are a close family, full of love and affection for one another, something another student points out that he wishes his family had.

My friend P( from grade 6 and just recently retired) is also back in Cuba again after just returning from Mexico last week where she went to just after returning from 2 weeks in Cuba before and I must say she's really enjoying her retirement and it's just begun, and the 27 YR old said he even hallucinated his fever was so high with the virus too and he was describing to me some of the things he saw and it freaked me out because I've seen some of the exact same things and it made me wonder if it really wasn't just a "hallucination" afterall but more something along the lines of a near death experience, otherwise why would we both "hallucinate" the same thing? I never told him though as it's just too weird( and kind of scary,too) but I have to say it really "rattled" me, and yesterday when I was in the kitchen cooking my hubby  must have had his phone on speaker and I overheard the kids talking "smack" about me, making fun of me liking Ponyo, the only Anime I like, as it's not like the violent fighting Anime the kids always watch, etc.(I don't know how they know though, unless the 27 YR old told them)and I never said anything; I just ignored it and pretended I didn't even hear it;(I know more than I let on) that's the best thing to do when you hear bullying or any unkindness; just ignore it and walk away but it does hurt that I'm always the one my entire life  being talked about behind my back, being bullied, being made fun of, the outcast, the scapegoat; in school and even by my own family,too. It just never ends.

I also heard Will Smith smacked out Chris Rock at the Academy Awards  the other night for making fun of his wife's bald head and people are criticizing him for it but I think he's a gentleman  defending his woman not letting anyone insult or hurt her and it's admirable! If it were my hubby he'd join in and make fun of me even more! It's never "nice" to make fun of how someone looks and I know  personally how much it really hurts.I also heard that now the largest number of people are leaving Canada in over the past 50 years and emigrating elsewhere due to the tyrannical restrictions on the unvaxxinated and I wish I  could leave,too, except being unvaxxinated they won't let  me leave or even board a plane! I just feel so trapped  here, in a country I hate and with a family that hates me, both in places where I just don't belong and where I'm so unhappy.

Songs are just poetry put to music.