Bits And Pieces.

My mother finally saw her doctor yesterday and the X-ray showed a slightly enlarged heart but her lungs are clear so overall it was good(the reason they had to re-do it was it was hazy the first time and they couldn't read it; typical half-assed incompetence here in "Bumble-F*ck") but she's concerned about her high blood sugars so she doubled one of her meds. She also suggested Physio for her sore shoulder/arm but she doesn't have coverage so she gave her some exercises to do at home instead and sees her again in 2 months. The enlarged heart could be Myocarditis, usually caused by a virus such as a cold, Flu, or COVID, or by high BP( she also has) or diabetes( she also has) but all in all not bad and it could have been worse, and at least it's not cancer like she was worried. As for me after NOT having my daily abdomenal  pain for almost a month it's been back now for the past 3 days now, as well as a really  sore back that hurts so much it feels like an elephant is standing on it and snapping my spine and I think it might be my right kidney again esp as I also saw a bit of old blood on my LBL pad and all I want to do is sleep and at times I feel really chilled and cold and shivering like I have a fever and like something has invaded and taken over my body so my guess is maybe a kidney infection or they're shutting down finally? For the past 2 days the hole in Buddy's face(I think must be cancer) also keeps bleeding and has some small clots so I keep irrigating it with water in a syringe and disinfecting it. I remember the same thing happened around 6 months ago,too.

One of my cousins in Europe also had another cycling trip( he loves cycling) and this time he fell off his bike and has a black eye and a gash above his eye and I remember one time before he fell off and bruised his kidney and was even peeing blood, and I imagine in the summer when I suntan topless in my yard the neighbours must be shaking their heads thinking, She must be European!  and awhile ago I was sitting out on the front veranda smoking weed and people walked by and heard one say in surprise, No! It's the mother! probably assuming it was one of the kids, and after the 15 YR old left the barber yesterday they called here saying he'd left his coat behind except he was wearing it so it wasn't him, it was someone else's and I coughed(my cough is suddenly back and much worse now,too) and choked on a Big Mac and thought to myself, So this is how I'm going to die? This is how it finally ends? I choke to death on a Big Mac? but at least I die happy, with a smile on my face, a full tummy, eating my final meal something I love.

I also heard on the news 3 teens this week alone were stabbed in Toronto schools, all aged 14-15, the victims and the stabbers, yet another reminder( not that I needed one) why I'm glad that we've always homeschooled, and I got an e-mail from Ticketmaster  about upcoming concerts in Toronto as well and told me they had personal selections just for me...and then announced Justin Bieber is coming so they obviously don't  know me that well at all; they couldn't even pay  me to see him, and now with Netflix I keep watching Monty Python (my fave. comedy and remind me of a combination of the old Saturday Night Live, Carol Burnett Show  and The Downer Channel) and I just love their historical, and political comedy as well as the absurd,satire, and mocking authority, and these are from the 60's and 70's when comedy was still allowed to be funny but they'd never allow it today with all that Politically Correct crap, and now Elon Musk owns Twitter  people are "concerned" Trump will get his account back but I hope he does; I'm no "fan" of his(I think he's an arrogant pig-eyed stack of shit) but I do, however, believe in freedom and free speech and he has a right to say what he wants and I have the right to ignore him,and besides, no one's forcing you to follow him. You also have that freedom.

When we remember we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained.-Mark Twain.