The Bee.

Yesterday as I was sitting outside a bumblebee landed on my knee( seen here) and I was able to get a photo of it before it flew away.I wasn't afraid of it because I knew it wouldn't sting me unless I bothered it. A wasp, however, would be a completely different story( those things are just mean nasty f*ckers!) and I would have freaked out and swatted it! It also got really really  windy(I later found out was 80 KM/HR wind!) and I know I should have probably gone inside at that point but my stoned ass thought it was really  cool  watching all the debris go flying and today there's tree leaves and branches scattered around all over. I also felt really awful yesterday as well; really bad stomach, abdomenal and back pain( as usual) but also every muscle and bone in my body hurt,and I was really sweaty I kept feeling like I was going to pass out and I had a splitting throbbing headache,too so I had a nap for 3 HRS and felt better afterwards. Just as soon as it was time for the news the TV went off as well once again and when I turned it back on there was no sound, for the third day in a row, NOT a "coincidence" so I'm pretty sure my hubby must  have done something to sabotage it and I asked the 15 YR old for help but he refused and my hubby swore it wasn't him but I'm still not sure what to think; am I just being paranoid, and just have incredible bad luck, or is he just gaslighting me again and f8cking with my mind? With him I can never really tell and never really know...

This morning I also noticed Buddy has melena-tarry black shit- indicating internal bleeding, usually in the colon, and he cried in pain when I picked him up,too, and last night the 27 YR old was late coming home from work again and he never called us to let us know he'd be late like we asked him to, to let us know so we wouldn't worry, you know, just as a courtesy, and and I had a dream I was talking to my cousin J who I haven't heard from in over 40 years so I wonder if it maybe means she's died(she's 9 years older than me) and the other night I had this dream I was smoking an empty bong; I had forgotten to put the water in and I wonder if that means anything? They also said on the news even with mask mandates lifted some 70%-80% of sheeple are still wearing masks on public transit, still living in fear, not getting on with life, still being like mindless lemmings that follow the crowd, enslaved to mass hysteria, and a blog I follow she's climbing Mount Kilimanjaro as well and yesterday her and the group left base camp to begin their ascent and I think that's just the coolest most amazing thing ever; I mean, how many people can say that they've climbed Mount Kilimanjaro?

“When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love have always won. There have been tyrants and murderers, and for a time, they can seem invincible, but in the end, they always fall. Think of it--always.” ― Mahatma Gandhi