Smile!

We got a dozen of the Tim Hortons Smile cookies as 100% of the proceeds go to charity and God loves the charitable and we love cookies so everybody wins! There was one odd-looking, mis-shapen, warped, "retarded" "reject" one and I felt sorry for it and chose it because I knew that no one else would and I know exactly how it feels. My fave. TV show The Resident also had its season premiere on Tuesday and of course, wouldn't you know it with my 'luck" that's when the sound went out on the TV and I was freaking out as I waited 4 months for this and I was dying to find out if Conrad chose Cadee or Billie to be his Girl(and I was really hoping it would be Billie since she loves him and has for a long time.....but much to my disappointment he didn't, the dumb-ass) so I asked my hubby to at least put on the closed-caption then so I could at least read it, like subtitles but he couldn't figure out how but after fidgeting with it for awhile he finally got the sound back in time, thank God! My friend P (from grade 5) her mother also recently died and her father's been dead awhile now and so the thought occurred that she's an orphan now; a 54 year old orphan and the other day I was sitting out on the veranda smoking weed watching it rain, and I love listening to the sound of the rain but then it thundered so I went inside and tonight it's supposed to be going down to 4 C so I guess I'm going to have to close my bedroom window.

A couple of days ago after smoking weed I also thought it would be a good idea to shave off my eyebrows( and still no one even noticed yet!) and I sort of look like an alien babe although not much different than before as they were thin before and in this photo I also think I look shockingly thinner,older, and sicker, and yesterday and today my usual bad lower back and abdomenal pain and also baaad stomach pain( likely my ulcer?) that felt like I was kicked by a horse and so bad it made me gasp and was hard to breathe at times and also that weird headache too that radiates to my ears, jaw, and back of my neck.I also have this searing, almost ripping/tearing sensation in my upper back as well that I wonder could even possibly be the beginning of an aortic dissection or aneurysm,and all Buddy does now is sleep all day,too, but that sounds good to me, and yesterday my mother's walker was(as always) blocking the hallway entrance as I was trying to get to the bathroom and when I asked her to please move it she went all bat-shit and screeched at me, Well, f*ck! You always have to complain about something! ..wow...what...I just wanted to get to the bathroom and she  was the one in the way yet somehow it's always my fault! I swear, I hate this family!

I've also had my eye on this cool silver sunflower ring for months now and yesterday I finally ordered it as it was on sale from 80$ down to 20$ and there's a rumour as well that at the end of this month the Fascist gov't may finally end the ArriveCan app and once they do as well as lift the face diaper(mask) requirement on all flights I'll finally be free to travel again and will go back to Jamaica and will have successfully waited it out, endured, not given in, got thru the other side and refused to jump thru their hoops, and survived and my hubby( as always trying to burst my bubble) said Jamaica still requires proof of COVID vaccination( which,of course, I don't have and never will) and I hope he's wrong but if not I'll just find somewhere else I can go that doesn't, maybe somewhere I haven't been to before, maybe even somewhere "off-beat" like North Korea or somewhere; I mean, how many people can actually say that they've been to North Korea? That would be an interesting trip!

I'm tired of screwing up, tired of goin' down Tired of myself, tired of this town.-Tom Petty