Life Is F*ck.

The other ring I ordered arrived yesterday and wouldn't you know it( of course) it's too small( just like the last one) and I didn't get the correct gems I'd ordered,either; only one of them was right( the sapphire, but I didn't get the opal or the ameythyst but 2 pink ones instead) shown in the photos here and it only goes part-way down my ring finger and they're supposed to be worn as 3 rings on one finger(and I hoped to wear them on my middle finger) but it doesn't fit andI'm so disappointed and pissed-off.;nothing ever goes right  for me or works out and I'm so fed-up with it! Sometimes I wonder if maybe my expectations are just too high but it's NOT expecting too "much" to want what I ordered and paid  50$ for to fit properly so I can actually wear it and enjoy it and to have the proper stones I asked for! I'll try and see if I can exchange it for a bigger size and the right gems but I won't count on it, partly because things don't go right for me and partly because when I tried with my other ring it seems to have come from China or somewhere because when I sent them the message they didn't seem to even understand what I was saying and just kept sending the same reply that my item was "in transit" which it wasn't; I received it, but it was too small and I needed to exchange it for a bigger size, so as usual I guess I'm just stuck with the wrong thing that doesn't fit and I won't even be able to wear. Just another waste of $$$ and another disappointment. Welcome to my life.

My life is f*ck.

Here is how it's supposed to look, stacked and worn as a set but my fat, swollen, bloated fingers it won't fit. Hopefully I do have cancer or something and I'll lose massive amounts of weight and then maybe they'll finally fit? I wonder too if maybe I do have stomach cancer though with my  combination of bad stomach pain and  swelling, bloating and fluid retention in that area, above my belly-button in the stomach area, making me look prego and it feels like a combination of a raw, gnawing pain with being kicked by a horse and of my stomach being stretched out as far as it can go and a waistband being 4 sizes too small and it's a constant pain too that never lets up. It's possible esp. since I did have stomach ulcers which puts me at higher risk for stomach cancer. Today child # 5 also turns 28 and for his birthday dinner he got 2 Baconators  from Wendys (his fave. food) and when ordering he also brought home a Frosty for my mother and I which I thought was nice and 2 days ago was the oldest's birthday as well and he turned 33 and the cannabis dispensary delivered my order the other day and my hubby loudly scoffed, Your DRUG DEALER is here! and I reminded him, It's MEDICINE!! Why does he always have to be such an asshole all the time? I also saw a guy in front of our house taking photos aiming up towards my bedroom window and at first I thought he must be some sort of pervert and I almost told him off but then realized he was probably just taking photos of the leaves on our tree, and it hurts me to realize as well that I would die for my kids yet they couldn't even be bothered to call me or send me a card for Mother's Day or on my birthday.

Sometimes the only closure you need is understanding that you deserve better.”-Training Mindful