My sunflower ring came and I really like it.....except it's too small and doesn't fit! I ordered my usual ring size but it won't go down past my knuckle(so I don't know if they sent the wrong size of if my fingers got fatter and more swollen?) and it won't fit any other fingers,either and it's too big for my pinkie so I hope I can exchange it for a bigger size and I'm just so upset and pissed-off; I was really excited for it and looking forward to it. It figures,though; just my "luck!" Why can't something just work out and go right for me for once? I really do think I must be cursed with bad luck. My patio reclining chair also broke; my fat ass was too much for it and I asked my hubby to fix it but anything for me isn't a priority even though I use my chair every day sitting outside and then the TV had no sound and I was freaking out I'd miss my other show tonight( I only watch 2 shows!) but luckily my hubby was able to fix it before he went out and when I mentioned to my mother I can see she's on The Spectrum (and where do you think I got my autism from?) she sneered, Why do you always have to label people?(and I wasn't "labelling" her; I was diagnosing her) and she had her walker blocking the door again so I couldn't get out like she always does, blocking entrances and exits and doorways and when i said can't she at least move it out of the way, like on the other side so she doesn't block people trying to come in and out she scoffed, Not people; just YOU! in a dismissive tone, as if I don't "count" or matter because it's only me.
The construction guys also left a note in our mailbox saying today they're starting on our new sidewalk so to park on another street and here they are digging up part of our driveway( they dug up The Teacher across the street's entire driveway!) so I hope they do the whole thing as we can really use a new driveway; I've wanted one for years as ours is all old and cracked and gross but we can't afford it and the other day our Internet and TV was down for 3 1/2 hours as well and today it was a nice 21 C and supposed to be nice tomorrow too and then drop down to a more seasonal 10 C and yesterday the 27 YR old had a job interview for cleaning chandeliers(I never even knew that was a thing and we have chandeliers in our diningroom and foyer but never get them cleaned and the only things we've had professionals come in and clean are the piano, the grandfather clock and the furnace/A/C) and they asked him a weird question as well; if he "had any 'problem' with Jews" as alot of their clients are Jewish. He also says that the purpose of life is to get laid, and as much as possible, as often as possible, and with as many people as possible, but I think the purpose of life is to return to God and to find happiness and love.
This is also me on the front veranda covering up my mouth and nose when the construction trucks go by on the dusty road and kick up dirt I don't really want to breathe in, and I had a Grand Big Mac which has 4 beef patties so I took 1 patty out and tore it into little pieces and gave it to Buddy, sharing with him, which he really enjoyed....but then shortly after he barfed up, but my hubby does call McDonald's Choke & Puke,and something good that actually happened today,too( and believe me, I really needed it!) with the McDonald's Monolopy I actually won a free sammich and fries.....and I never win anything! I really needed something good to happen today as I'm just so beaten down and so tired of nothing ever working out or going right for me, and always screwing up, and my life just being one big disappointment after another, always getting let down, and being an ugly fat slob that everyone hates( kind of like Rosie O'Donnell) and it's like I live in my own little "bubble" and everyone else just sort of co-exists around me but not really a part of my world and I just wonder what the point of it all is and why I even bother' for what ?
...The fight for acceptance in a world that's not our own.-Kanye West
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