Me, Suicidal?

Yesterday I got a notice from Facebook saying a concerned friend reported me worried my posts may indicate self-harm or suicide and I honestly don't even know which posts they're even referring to( or is it just in general?) but in any case it wasn't intentional and I'm not suicidal, at least not currently; it's nothing more than my usual everyday bipolar, etc. but it was nice that someone cared enough as even the times when I really and truly am just holding on by the edge and about to slip off even my own family either doesn't notice or doesn't care( but in any case never reaches out) so it's nice to know that at least somebody cares, and strangers across the world care more about me than my own family does.The online community is my only connection to the outside world and the only support I really have and for someone on the Spectrum like me it's the most comfortable way to inter-act with others with my social phobia, as opposed to face-to-face where I feel awkward, self-conscious, and never know what to say, how to act, or how to socialize, etc. I feel alot more at ease behind a keyboard where they can't actually see me or hear me. That way I still can connect with people and have friends only without feeling as vulnerable.

This morning my hubby saw me put a bath-bomb in my bath and he said I thought you got those for the 23 YR old for Christmas? and I told him that I also got some for me, telling him, She's not the only one that likes bath-bombs; I like them,too! (hint, hint) and today we also have a snow squall warning and last night I put snow in my bong to cool it down too so it's not so hot and scorches my throat and the 28 YR old ordered sunglasses as well but I think when people wear sunglasses in winter or indoors they DON'T look "cool"; they just look like douchebags and I heard this radio ad against violence against women and girls and I thought but how about violence boys and men? They're actually more statistically likely to be a victim(or die) of a violent crime than women; how about NO violence against anybody, and my mother's "losing" it so bad now I even heard her telling the Google Home Device  to Set my mind  for 9 am when she really meant to set her alarm for 9 am but she's too "embarrassed" to mention her decline to her doctor( even though that's her job) or to take the cognitive tests she offered. One of my cousins in Europe is also on a plane right now with a friend going to Cape Verde on vacation.

This life hasn't turned out quite the way I want it to be.-Nickelback