New Year's Steve.

Today is New Year's Eve eve or as we call it New Year's Steve. My mother also complains that she doesn't have any winter boots and her feet will frezze and go diabetic gangrene( and whose fault is that?) and I remember she always liked the old Cougar boots I had when I was 12 (and also in Jr. High and high school and when I outgrew it she got my old pair as her feet are smaller than mine) and said how they were the warmest boots she ever had, etc. so I went online to see if they still make them and I found them, now 240$ but I found them reduced for 167$ so I'm hoping to order it for her and my hubby and I each go half to pay for it. I hope and think she'll be greatly surprised and happy. The 28 YR old also had a really good week off; he had Dungeons & Dragons twice with his group, jiu-jitsu a couple of times and got to go to the shooting range as well and I stupidly put A5-35  on my back and neck right after my bath too when my pores were open and it stung and burned like a bitch!

I also really need a pick-me-up so this morning I'm going to the salon to get my nails done and I'm hoping to get it done like this: this length(I hate those really long "Dragon Lady" talons) and with a metallic chrome silver. I also heard Pele died and even I know who Pele was; the greatest soccer player of all time, and my mother said the most racist thing yesterday too: there's 2 Indian DJ's on the radio and she said to me I wonder if they're related? Brother and sister or maybe married? and I said to her Why would you assume that just because they're both Indian? Toronto is a very diverse city; that's just like us travelling abroad and meeting someone else from Canada and the locals assuming we must know eachother because we're from the same country! That's racist! I realize as well that both my hubby and I have mental illness( he's also autistic and has OCD as well and what they used to call MPD but now called DID) and in both of our families so the poor kids never even had a chance, and why do the kids hate and blame me for my autism and bipolar but have no problem my hubby has mental illness,too? Why is it just me singled-out?

Today for my pampering day I'm also going to the barber to get a "Fade" in my hair on the sides and back,too, like in the photo here, and last night I also noticed I now have a purple blotchy rash on my lower legs as well, so maybe I actually really do have meningitis(or sepsis?) afterall and my mother's so dizzy too she almost fell over so now she must have whatever virus I have now,too, and Buddy's smart, as well: he hardly has any teeth now to bite down on his toys to make them squeak but figured out if he rolls around on top  of them he can still make them squeak, and my hubby's nephew just got let out of Facebook "jail" and doesn't even know what he did, which is common and happens to me all the time, and now if you aren't "Woke" or politically correct and don't agree with LGBT or the Enviro and vaccine agenda,etc. you get cancelled, as you're not "allowed" to think, believe or express any opinion that differs from what the gov't (the Thought Police) deems "acceptable"; there's no free speech anymore, and my friend who went to Kenya also went to Cameroon, Senegal, and Ethiopia; going back to her roots, like I do when I go to Europe, and a cousin in Europe her daughter had her cell phone stolen and they tracked it by the GPS and tracked it down( as the police refused to help) and ended up in the bad part of town; the dangerous ghetto but weren't successful in getting it back and I don't know if that's bad-ass or just stupid, and I hate it too when people whine about 'too many immigrants taking over" too, you mean how like our ancestors came here and took over and sent the Indigenous People off to reservations, stole their land, sent their kids off to Residential schools and the foster care system, trying to erase their language and culture even though they were here first?

You dragged me down to a hole so deep I'm crawling out on my hands and knees I'd stick around but I know it's gonna be The end of me.-Billy Talent