Just. F*ck.

Yesterday was one of those truly horrible, terrible, awful shitty days. We also got snow, a blizzard with gusty blustery winds, so now everything's coated in white again, and as well as my songs being deleted off my iPod I went to put the laundry in the dryer and now that doesn't work,either, so now we had to call yet another repairman in (and he can't come until MONDAY so no clean clothes for us) for more repairs we can't afford plus we had no dry clothes( with the wind I could have hung them outside in the trees to dry like tacky people do but then they also would have blown away down the street,too, it was so windy) so my hubby ran up to a laundry mat( they still have those) and dried them but they closed early before the towels could finish drying so now we still have damp musty bath towels. Yuck! Then, on top of that, I ordered a spicy flatbread from KFC I've been looking forward to and now they say it's been discontinued.

It figures.

Just my "luck."

I wonder what exactly with all this shit the universe is trying to tell me here?

As for my lost songs my mother just shrugged I just have to "start over" but it isn't that "easy" to replace some 2000 songs and it broke my heart to lose them all and last night I was seriously all set to just end it all;  giving up in quiet resignation; just done,just soooo tired of everything all the time; tired of always worrying about $$$$, being in debt until we die, neverending expenses we can't afford, constant bad luck, never catching a break, nothing ever going right, everything always going wrong, always struggling, toxic family, everything we have is shit, etc. and losing my music was just the "final straw"....but then I found out that I still did  have it in my downloads so my hubby still was able to transfer it back on to the iPod afterall and it was saved! What a sheer relief  and so it ended up I didn't end up killing myself afterall and that will have to wait for another day, until Buddy dies anyway because I really didn't want to leave him all alone, but after that there's nothing left for me anymore,anyway.

Yesterday my Dutch Facebook friend also messaged me asking if I was ok, saying she can see I have alot going on and asked if I needed someone to vent to which really meant alot and I thought was nice and Kelly Clarkson always says, Have a good day, and if it's not good, change it but MY version goes, Have a good day, and if it's not good, f*ck it! and the 28 YR old and his boss( who is also now his friend) are going together to purchase a side of beef  and he will chop it up( he knows how to butcher as he used to work at a meat processing plant years ago) into steaks and divide it up and he bought a new Ginsu knife as well and was really surprised I knew what it was so I guess I'm NOT as dumb as they think I am, and he also said he wants to self-publish this big lavish book with photo-shopped photos of him with famous people called, The Fabulous Life Of Mr. B  and I also read somewhere too that Mozart composed a piece titled Leck mich im Arsch  and I have no way of knowing if it's actually true or not, but if it is Mozart was one dirty bird, and I don't need to translate it for you as it's exactly what you think it is! 😂

Reflections in the waves spark my memory Some happy, some sad I think of childhood friends and the dreams we had We lived happily forever So the story goes.-Styx