Weekend Update.

I was looking at old photos and came across these old ones from 2011 when my mother and I took the 19 and 21 YR olds on a Caribbean cruise when they were 8 and 10 years old. It was for 2 weeks and the 19 YR old was ok for the first week but she was so horrible  and miserable and bratty and homesick for the second week everyone was so fed-up with her, even me and I was even tempted to either leave her on the ship or ditch her in port. We don't start taking the kids on trips until they're 8 as before they're too young to really appreciate it( even when I took the oldest and the 28 YR old across Europe at 16 and 11 they still slept right thru most of it and acted-up even so) but she had just turned 8 on the trip so maybe she just wasn't old enough? My friend P is currently now in St. Lucia which is one of the places we took the girls to as well and where the 19 YR old got her hair braided in corn-rows, as seen here,too.Isn't she just the cutest thing?

I also smelled ketones in my mother's room yesterday so her glucose level must be really high if I can even smell it coming off her skin, and my mother gave the newly-minted now 16 YR old 100$ in his birthday card as well, to which he exclaimed, Jackpot!! when he opened it up and saw it and the 28 YR old said, I never got any money for my birthday! and I told him neither did I and I'm her child; all she gave me for my birthday was a box of chocolates, but  we all know that the 16 YR old is her favourite and they put out the annual Sunshine List too "outing" public servants who earn 100K a year or more, almost as if they're trying to "shame" them,  and I don't see the point of it; I don't think it's anybody's business how much income people make, and yesterday we had lots of snow, ice pellets and then torrential rain( so much for spring!) and now our kitchen ceiling's leaking again,too.

Here is the 21 YR old at age 10 when we took the tour on the old pirate ship. I think it was in Tortola if I remember correctly and it was the same ship they used as the Black Pearl  in the Pirates Of The Caribbean movies.and my cousin in Europe got another tattoo, just a month after she got her first one and this one's on her other arm; a witch on a broomstick so she must be into the occult, and tattoos are addictive, like potato chips; you can't just have one, and the 28 YR old taunts I'm "not a woman" now my uterus got removed even though I was born with it and I still have my ovaries( for hormones), boobs, and pussy, and even when a dog gets spayed( uterus removed) it's still a female dog and not a male, and when women get mastectomies(boobs removed) for cancer they're still women and yesterday I was sitting in the livingroom listening to my Flashback 60's, 70's, and 80's show on the radio the 28 YR old comes in and puts the TV on so loud I couldn't hear and then he tells me to leave even though I was there first and his excuse was because he's "cute" and I told him, Age before beauty!

I also have this small tan triangle-shaped birthmark on my stomach that looks like an arrow head, a spear tip and it makes me wonder if maybe that's how I died in a previous life; I was stabbed and that's my scar, and I'm thinking our mystery flower might be a crocus afterall(even though it looks big for a crocus) and not a daffodil(the leaves are similar but the buds are still closed so until it blooms we won't know for sure) as daffodils have a "sheath" on them and these don't,and it's sad too to realize that nothing in life is permanant; everything is just temporary; friends, love, happiness, security, etc. nothing lasts forever.

My world is small and my hopes are few.