Today's a dull day in both ways; it's dark and dull and rainy and not much is going on. I saw this pretty Gypsy-style skirt online yesterday I like but hesitant to order as a couple of times I ordered stuff online when I got it it didn't look like in the photo and it looked cheap and I got ripped-off. I think this is really pretty though and my perfect style. Yesterday I also had a toasted bagel and garlic spread for lunch (and I made a nice light supper,too: toasted bagel with tomato, cheese, lettuce, mayonnaise, and pepper)and the strong garlic smell woke my mother up and she said it was "gross" even though her disgusting broccoli, turnip,and liver always grosses me out, and the 16 YR old's health card came in the mail and I sent the soon-to-be( at the end of the month) 24 YR old a birthday card and I also added, Even though you didn't remember Mother's Day I still remembered your birthday .
It's too bad the kids don't know about and read this blog though as maybe then they'd know how much they hurt me, but then again, knowing them they probably wouldn't even care,anyway, and in fact, that's probably the intention, and they'd also know that I always have good intentions ,too, even if it "comes out" wrong or they "take" it the wrong way,and that I always meant well and did what I thought was best and even dedicated my life to them and sacrificed so much when we had to flee my enemy in Ottawa to keep them safe, incl. giving up the home I loved and all my YMCA friends and my church friends and my homeschooling network and friends, etc., my entire life, and had to start over, but yet despite that for some reason they still hate me and I don't have any idea why.
I also wonder as well if all I ever do is "annoy" people then why do I even exist and I've often had "flashbacks" if you will, of how I've died in Past Lives, very graphic ones and I know how it felt,too, incl. dying by drowning, being shot, being hit by lightning, in childbirth and in a fire, and something that makes me wonder as well is why some people are so hesitant to buy a used car when for the most part you buy a used house as unless it's a new build your house is "used" too, usually several times over, so what's the difference? Tomorrow we also hope to have our first BBQ of the season and on Monday I'm going to get some lilacs.
2 minutes to midnightTo kill the unborn in the womb-Iron Maiden
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