Jesus Robe.

Here's the 28 YR old in his new Jesus robe with the fringes. He looks like a hippie and I said all he needs now are Birkenstock sandals("Jesus" sandals),  a tie-dye shirt,a beaded necklace,some silver and turquoise rings, string and beaded bracelets and torn cut-off  frayed denim shorts to complete the look! I said it looks like something that Jim Morrison would wear and he said Who?  and it just broke my heart. Jim Morrison.... you know.....from The Doors...a popular group from the 60's? He also jokes he's going to start his own cult now,too, The Children Of The Golden Dawn. Ha, ha. He also opened up his wallet and a condom fell out and I just sighed and rolled my eyes. There are some things in the kids' lives that I really don't want to know about. The 16 YR old also got his hair cut yesterday, finally;it was so long in his eyes he looked like a sheepdog and I really don't think he even had it done last time but just said  that he did but this time I can actually tell he did because now it looks nice and cut and short. My mother's knee also hurts for some reason( arthritis?) anbd so bad she can't walk(and needs help now getting in and out of bed and to the bathroom) and it kept her up all night last night so she let me convince her to put some of my CBD topical cream on it for relief but won't try the CBD oil or smoke some weed for the best relief, or at least not yet,anyway.

For the past 4 days or so my stomach and abdomen also hurt sooooo bad it feels like I've been kicked by a horse and that it's all being stretched out and I wonder if the chicken weiners we had for the BBQ really actually weren't afterall but if they actually snuck some pork in there and I noticed this thing on my lower left abdomen as well that might be a melanoma but could also just be  an exzema patch as it's rough and scaly but also bleeds and that part's never even exposed to the sun, and yesterday and today I heard Stairway To Heaven and I had a revelation before that I would hear it just before I die so I wonder if my time is upand also I had one another time too that when we die and go to Heaven and have our spiritual body we don't have a gender; you're just you, which makes sense I guess since we just need gender here on Earth in our physical body in order to reproduce.

I can still remember as well in Jr. High before gym class we had to run around the gym as few laps to 'warm" up and they'd let us play music except whenever the song Another Brick In The Wall (one of my faves.) came on they'd ban it and wouldn't let us play it as it spoke out against the oppression and injustice of the school system only proving the truth of the song, and I can remember as well when I was about 3 years old I went grocery shopping with my aunt and somehow I got lost and I went off with this other lady who looked the same( white hair and glasses) I thought was her and eventually we reunited and she was really mad at me and when we got back to her house she made me stand in the corner as  punishment and I wailed, But you're my favourite aunt! and she said, Then act like it! and it just broke my heart because I wasn't being bad; I just made a mistake; I just got lost, I was just a little kid, and for some reason that memory still sticks with me all these years later and for some reason unknown to us she "ghosted" us later from when I was 13 and we never saw her or my cousins again and I always wondered why. It's one of those (of many) questions I have for God when I die.

So kiss this one more time, 'cause I'm gone for good.-The Struts