Bag Of Oranges.

Yesterday we ( my hubby, the 28 YR old, 16 YR old, and I) visited my mother in the hospital again and this time she was semi-sitting up in her bed and even ate an entire egg sandwich on her own but still has the catheter and her potassium is low and she's dehydrated so they put the IV back in and she's still delusional at times,too, and even said to the 28 YR old that there was  a "bag of oranges behind his chair" and kept insisting and he kept looking to "humour" her but of course there was nothing there and she had just sucked on an orange slice so was probably just smelling that  and she also thought it was October and that she heard "someone famous and French from Quebec died" ( maybe she's foretelling Celine Dion's death, who isn't well? Maybe she's been to the Other Side?)and the nurses took the call button off her because she kept bothering them she said was "accidental" and I asked if she kept rolling over onto it and she said it was "in her hand" ( "accidental" ,my ass) and it's true; medical professionals( or in her case, retired ones) really are the worst patients, and she refused to eat the meatballs they gave her for dinner and I reminded her if she wants to come back home she has to eat and she sniffed, But I don't have to eat that! and said to me Next time you come visit me I want you to bring me a gift! even though I did just bring her flowers, but the good is at least she's back to her "usual" demanding self so she must be starting to feel better!

She also tricked one of the nurses into giving her 3 orange juices with her breakfast, not knowing she's diabetic( it has lots of sugar in it) because she hadn't read her chart, and they were even selling art they had displayed on a wall that incl. a sunflower painting I wanted to buy except I didn't have any $$$ with me but if it's still there today when we visit I hope to buy it, and the 28 YR old says I'm "weak" and it's just a "lack of 'discipline'" why I'm so nerve-wracked, stressed, and worried about my mother,too, and says it's "just natural with aging" but it's only because I care I'm concerned (plus my anxiety disorder doesn't help)and I think it's cold and callous that it doesn't bother him, and I'm so stressed-out I'm hardly eating much and basically for the past week just live off bagels and Jamaican patties. I also told everyone if I ever end up in the hospital I want someone to sneak Buddy in to visit me; to just smuggle him in a gym bag or something, and I hope it really is just hemmoroids I have as well and not rectal cancer or else everyone will think I got it from doing The Difficult Brown  and people will think I'm a pervert!

Yesterday the 16 YR old also went to a "dinky" little fair in town( they only have something like 6 rides) with his friend, and I still keep seeing that beautiful bright brilliant cardinal every day I wonder if it's a "sign" symbolic of something; some sort of "message", and I hid the Boursin cheese among the bags of milk in the fridge so the 28 YR old wouldn't eat it all like last time and he never changes the milk bags(I always seem to get stuck with that job) so I figured it would be safe there and he'd never find it but he still did and called me a "little rat" and my hubby said it turned out that the almost 22 YR old( this month) is dyslexic and all this time I just thought she was a bad speller!  I was also sitting outside tanning and these "seeds" kept raining down on me from the tree overhead and sticking to my suntan oil(and not good for my allergies,either!) and my hubby and the 28 YR old cleaned up my mother's bed area(I washed the sheets I could save but had to throw most out and get new ones) and there was so much garbage, rotten food, even a dead mouse, etc. under her bed it took 3 big black garbage bags full and took them 2 hours and even the cup holder in her walker had maggots in it! She's such a pig, hoarder, and God-knows-what-else but it was just soooo disgusting!

I stand alone today.-Jackyl