Memories.

Both summer and my trip are over(I can't believe it's fall already!waaaah!) all I have left are my memories( and photos) now.I also have this big bruise on my lower left leg from when I got off the plane and I had The Shits the first couple of days since I've been back,too, but at least it wasn't during the trip which matters the most and I can't find that earring I found in the sea either when I unpacked so maybe it was never mine to keep; just to find? The day after I got back I also overheard a neighbour next-door say to someone(about me) when I was outside smoking weed, She's back! HA! I guess they knew I was away for a week not smelling my weed smoke wafting over and not hearing me speaking German to my dog from my yard.My cousin in Europe also got back from her trip to Egypt and her flight was only 5 hours which isn't bad; for us it was over 12 hours! I also feel extra lethargic and tired since I got back too so maybe I picked up something while I was away, either that or the Shithole just sucks the life out of me?

The 24 YR old also found out she has a gluten allergy which explains her diarrhrea and the oldest lost his birth certificate and asked me to send him the long-form( certified with the stamp on it) one I have as he needs to re-new his passport but they only need that one for kids' passports(and the wallet-sized one  is fine for adults) and I couldn't find it ,anyway(I was just going to send him a copy though, not the original in case he loses that,too) afterall it's been 34 years, so I just told him to send  off to the Registrar General for another copy like I had to do when he was little and I thought I lost his but later found it (so I ended up with 2 copies)and when I had to get a copy of my own when I got Confirmed. The 28 YR old also cruelly said that my mother is a "nuisance"  and she "bleeds him dry" by charging him(minimal!) rent(even though our expenses have now gone up,too) and 'can't we put her in a cheaper home" and he "hopes she dies" which I think is HORRIBLE and really mean and last weekend the 24 YR old gave her a nice surprise by visiting her and tomorrow when I visit I'm bringing Buddy with me,too, because it's too soon for me to leave him again.

I also realize with me putting my mother "out to pasture" I am now at the second-final stage of adulthood (with the final stage burying her) and it saddens me, and I had a revelation before I'll die on the 29th too and I wonder if it'll be this month,esp. now I've had my trip, and while I was away my hubby also let the Internet TV thing expire so when I came back I didn't have the news,and this shithole pledged 650 MILLION$ to Ukraine as well but I think that the homeless, refugess, and foodbanks, etc. here could certainly use the $$$$ for a much better purpose instead of funding war and people treat Zelensky like he's some sort of folk hero too; but I wouldn't be surprised if he was the Anti-Christ,or at the very least a Wolf In Sheep's Clothing ,and now India has banned visas for Canadians as well as twatwaffle Trudeau pissed them off  now too by accusing their gov't of sending assassins here to assassinate a guy they deemed a terrorist even though countries routinely send agents abroad to kill terrorists( Mossad,for instance, is well known for this, but they all do it and I'm sure this shithole does,too) so I wouldn't have been able to go to India,afterall; the second time it got thwarted, as if maybe I'm not meant to go for some reason, but then why am I drawn to it then?

Butterflies symbolize hope and rebirth and they struggle thru darkness to emerge beautiful.