Trees.

Here's the tree next-door now, no green left, and the others pictured here are at the front, with the one below at the very bottom at the left side completely devoid of leaves now(my hubby calls Tree Porn because it's naked) and it's kind of sad too how underneath, with all the leaves gone, how bare and ugly they look,too, yet when covered with leaves so beautiful, and then even more so when the leaves change colours. People are like that,too; they can lose their beauty, or only appear beautiful on the outside but underneath really aren't.I also can't believe that exactly 2 months yesterday is Christmas and I'm soooo NOT prepared for it in any way, not psychologically or in any way and I haven't even thought about buying gifts yet; all I know is this year I'll be doing an all-white theme on the tree.

I also realized with my hubby and the boys original plan on going to BC for Christmas not only leaving me home all alone for the holiday but my mother as well as she'd be left at her LTC home without any of us to visit her as well which is also kind of mean(as well as sad) and yesterday and today I still have really sore ears and throat and the "lump" in my throat feels bigger now as well and it even hurts to swallow my pills now and today I feel all sweaty and dizzy,too, and I hope it's not Strep but whatever it is I guess they'll find it when I get my repeat endoscopy on Tuesday since the tube/camera goes down my throat(and into my stomach.)and I still smile too remembering my innocent Jr. High crush on S(now him and his husband own a B&B in Costa Rica), and now  as adults he ended up gay and I ended up crazy. Life was so much more simpler back then.

I also rememberd when I was in Gaza years ago(it was an unnerving trip too, with an armed guard on our tour bus, but we had the same in Egypt,too, due to terrorism risk) I bought a Palestinian scarf I dubbed my PLO Scarf  which I wore in solidarity and now I just have to remember where I put it and find it and I'll take a photo,and Israel blaming all Palestinians for Hamas is just like in WWII blaming all Germans for the Nazis and I had a friend at the old church too( who was also the dad of one of the oldest's friends as a teen) who was a hostage negotiator and I wonder if they'd call him in to negotiate a ceasefire in Israel? His son(now an adult in his 30's) is also now in the military too, just like his father. I heard as well Trudeau's wife is now "shacking up" with a doctor. That didn't take long, did it?

Don't question why she needs to be so free She'll tell you it's the only way to be She just can't be chained To a life where nothing's gained And nothing's lost, at such a cost.-Rolling Stones