Dusting.

A couple of days ago we got a "dusting" of snow(seen here, with Buddy's cute little pawprints in the snow) but then yesterday it got up to 9 C and it all melted away. Buddy sniffed it like he was snorting coke and then he kept sneezing! I also saw the Gastro doc yesterday and my hubby oddly came with me to the app't(and even took the afternoon off work!) usually he just drops me off. The biopsy came back fine; he just wanted to see me to discuss the upcoming hemmoroid banding procedure and he gave me 2 new meds, one that decreases stomach acid and another that decreases bile. He said they're the strongest and the highest doses they have, and he said he was originally worried I had something called Barretts Esophagus with the irritation where the cells morph into odd shapes and are pre-cancerous but the biopsy didn't show any signs of that, and he said the hemmoroid banding, being done at the small  half-assed local hospital here( as opposed to the bigger one  in another town where I had the Scopes) they don't do sedation and I won't even get a local numbing/freezing/anesthetic, either,and he went on to explain that in the ass there are some parts where you feel pain and others where you don't and they have to make sure that they band the right part; the part that doesn't hurt and if I'm "frozen" I won't be able to tell but if not and they grip the wrong one and I "jump off the table they know they have the wrong one".

Holy f*ck! Whaaat? 

That doesn't sound good to me! I don't want to feel it at all!

I also asked why not just cut or burn it off like a wart and he said that's actually more painful and harder recovery and for 2 weeks after it feels like you're "shitting diamonds" but after the banding you shouldn't feel anything after it's been done(assuming they got the "right" spot!), so we'll see, but I'm definitely NOT looking forward to it, plus it'll be embarrassing,too, and he said he'll also be doing a rectal exam which I've never had done before but I know what it entails and my ass is an exit, NOT  an entrance and I'm really thinking of just cancelling the whole thing but then again I also DO want to get rid of this annoying hemmoroid....

So now it just means that I don't have throat or stomach cancer, but I still may have some other kind, expalining the fatigue and pain, because something's still wrong and causing it, and even if not, it doesn't still mean that I'm not going to die soon from something else though, like a heart-attack, stroke, or aneurysm, which would probably actually be better since at least they're quick and not long drawn-out suffering like with cancer, and Shane MacGowan( frontman of the Pogues) died yesterday too age 65 from encephalitis( brain infection, but I wonder how he got it?) and I'm not surprised as I saw a photo of him a few days before and he looked like he was dying and he had that exact same thin, sickly, "Concentration Camp" cancer/AIDS  "hollow" emaciated look like Patrick Swayze and Steve Jobs had just before they died of cancer, and I'd like to think that his dear friend Sinead O'Conner will be up in Heaven waiting to greet him, and Henry Kissinger(the guy that carpet bombed Cambodia) died at 100 as well and it seems that the Bad Guys often seem to live to be really old and my guess is because they sold their soul to the devil.

Today we also start our Advent calendars and excatly a month today we start a new year, and yesterday on the way home from the doctor we also stopped off and visited my mother since she's in the same area and we can't see her on Sunday as my hubby has to work so I told her the results and she said her friend keeps getting robbed,too; someone keeps stealing stuff from his room and "has it 'in' for him" and now my tattoo is peeling( peeling is healing) and it itches, and and the 29 YR old had a client yesterday who is his wealthiest yet and who has 40 foot ceilings(they had to use scaffolding to work) and a 28 000 sq. ft. house and paid the 10 000 bill in cash....wow....just wow...and I couldn't find the TV remote and when I sit on the couch the TV turned on; it turned out it was hidden buried deep in the couch! I also saw this hot guy on TV and it said his name is Tony Gonzalez I had no idea who he is but Google said he plays football, but all I know is that he's hot, and now the week-long ceasefire in Gaza ended and they're back to fighting like Israel vowed they'd do but at least for a week many hostages were freed and much-needed aid was brought to Gaza and they had a week of peace and now Israel claims Hamas made a detailed  40 page plan a year ago to attack but they didn't "believe" it and brushed it off as all "talk" ( never underestimate your enemy!) but others say Israel "staged" the attack to blame Hamas as an excuse to raze Gaza and 95% of all war is propaganda(from both sides) anyway so you never really know who and what to believe.

I *thought* I had raised conscientious, caring people. Perhaps they are, but not towards me.-Philip on Quora