Buddy had another stroke this morning around 11:30 am. He had one 2 months ago,too, the end of January. Today he kept flexing and jerking his head to one side and his eyes kept quickly darting back and forth and I picked him up and held him, thinking I was going to watch my best friend die right before my eyes, taking his last breaths, but then it passed, like last time, and luckily he didn't die, but his head was still tilted to the left side(like it was last time,too) and when I put him down outside to do pee he couldn't walk or even stand up and he would fall over and roll onto his side. He also didn't want me to ever be away from him and I wasn't going to leave his side anyway( so it worked out I visited my mother yesterday because there's no way I would have left him today!) and he spent the rest of the day cuddling in my arms and sleeping and he would bark and tell me when he had to go out to pee and 6 hours later he was finally able to stand up and balance and walk! Now he can walk but he's still wobbly and unsteady and tilts over to the left side(and sometimes falls over) but he's smart too and will lean to the right side to balance himself out to compensate. He's very good at adapting and now he also drools from one side as well and he doesn't want to eat but still drinks.
My heart is breaking. My poor boy.
I also got a yummy chocolatey DQ Blizzard since my hubby went to DQ to pick up the youngest's ice cream cake for his birthday tomorrow.
I didn't nap today I was so worried about Buddy and I probably won't sleep much tonight either. He's the best friend I've ever had, my soulmate, my soul dog and my heart-dog. He's all I have and the only one that really loves me and the only reason I have to live and to keep going. Without him I have no one and nothing and nothing to live for anymore. I don't know how many times he's come close to dying but God has always restored him to me. I can't lose him. He is my heart.
He is my world.
He is my life.
He is my everything.
When his heart stops so does mine because our hearts beat as one.
Its just her, and her dog. That’s all she has.-Jean-Marie Valheur
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