Yesterday sucked!
I still have really bad abdomenal,stomach,and back pain, plus I was really looking forward to my quesadilla my hubby said he was going to pick up for my snack( and I even planned my entire day around it and watching my TV show)....and then he came back and told me the place is now out of business( why do all the good places always go?) and if that wasn't bad enough(they had the best Tequila lime chicken quesadillas with pineapple salsa!) he didn't even bring me back anything else for my snack either( and if he didn't know what I wanted he could have, you know, phoned me and asked) and I was sooo hungry(I hadn't eaten since 10 am) and was eager for my food....and then refused to go back out and get something....
and then....
I never even got to watch my show,either, because of the f*cked-up TV,and I only watch one show now( The Conners) anyway as it isI only used to watch 3 shows, anyway ( The Conners, The Blacklist, The Resident) but 2 of them ended last year, leaving only one left, so I didn't even have that,which I was also looking forward to.
....then I got my turkey, havarti, cranberry, almond wrap from the grocery....but they f*cked that up,too, and used the gross whole wheat tortilla instead of the usual one and ruined it,too!
F*ck!
I'm always getting let-down and disappointed and tired of things always go wrong and never just work out for me!!
Yesterday I also saw 3 ravens perched in our tree and wondered if it's an omen of some sort; many things are signs, we just don't always see them, and I saw a squirrel pee on our fence "marking" its territory,too, and it's not dainty but it all squirts out at once in a huge blast, sort of like when you suddenly turn on the hose and it also reeks like cat piss in case you were wondering. I also noticed this line-shaped sore bruise on the side of my head near the top even though I never bumped or hit it and have no idea where it came from and wonder if my mid-back and side pain could be my kidneys or pancreas, and a butterfly landed on me as well as I lay out in the sun and I've always attracted animals but repelled people.
We also had a big storm a couple of nights ago that woke me up with loud thunder, lots of lightning and heavy rain and maybe getting another one tonight,too, and rain for the next few days, and now you can be charged up to 10K in fines if you participate or even just attend a car rally as well and I don't see what the big problem is; they're in mall parking lots after-hours so no one gets hurt, so what's the problem? There's also an inquiry into foreign interference into the last 2 elections (although I don't know why any foreign gov't would care less what happens in this shithole) and that would explain though how Trudeau got elected because it's hard to believe that anyone would be stupid enough to actually vote for him, and my original plan was to go on another vacation this month but now my mother no longer lives here with us life is much more peaceful and less stress (so now we know what the problem was and it resolved)I don't have the desperate need to escape like I did before so I'll just save my $$$ for when I do feel the need to get away and now she's no longer here I've turned into her as well; now I feed the squirrels and tell everyone to not leave the lights on when they leave the room and to recycle instead of garbage because it's free,etc.
I have become my own worst nightmare.
I've become my mother.
Oh, yeah, life goes on, long after the thrill of living is gone.-John Mellencamp
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