Here And Now.

Yesterday was finally nice ( 10 C and not really windy or cloudy or raining) and mild so Buddy and I were able to sit outside in the sun most of the day and I even got a red sunburned face! This morning we also got a nice pretty pink sunrise but also got a weather warning of 50 mm rain and 75 KM/HR winds later today,too,with possible power outages, so there's also that. Then it's supposed to rain for the next few days as well so we'll be stuck indoors. That's one thing I hate about spring; all the rain!This morning I also soaked in a nice lavender Epsom Salts bath and now Buddy is sleeping curled up beside me  on his little cushion snoring loudly and it's so cute and he never used to snore like that until he got old. I also shared with him some of the yummy beef, tomato gnocchi the 29 YR old made only it had Tabasco and Sirracha sauce in it and so it was spicy hot for him and after he was done he went right to his water dish and drank almost all of it!😂 I also had this scary dream last night I couldn't find him(I have this dream alot,actually) and was looking all over for him and wouldn't leave without him and a short, fat, curly-haired toothless guy had him and then when I came for him he tied his ears together and roughly threw him to the floor.😡😭

For a few days now I've also been trying to order my monthly weed online(I'm down to only 5 pre-rolls left!) but it kept saying it can't deliver to my address which is weird since they've been delivering here forever (and they're just in town not far away) so I phoned them to see what was going on and they tried it at their end as well and the same thing happened.....but only for my address( doesn't it figure? I don't know how many times I've heard things like this; I swear I must be a jinx!) but all the others were fine..it was just mine and he confirmed they still DO deliver here....of course.... so the guy said he'd have his IT guy look at it and in the meantime I keep trying each day and if it's still not resolved by Friday(when my hubby has time) I'll have to haul my ass down there to the dispensary and pick it up.I also realized that us and L across the street are the only 2 last remaining original families left from when we first bought the house and moved on the street 21 years ago and all the others that were here when we moved in have all either died or moved , some a few times over.

That makes me feel sooo old.

I also read an interesting account of Jesus yesterday as well: someone said that from a family's perspective of someome who followed Him that He would appear from the outside anyway to be a cult leader: leave your family and everything behind to follow Him, give all your $$$ to the group, live with the group in a communal setting, eat with the group, and even give up your very life for the leader, the group,and its teachings and I thought holy f*ck! I also don't think that the Romans crucified Him for claiming to be the Son of God because He never said He was; it was other people that did, and for one thing the Romans wouldn't care about things like that since they were pagans; they would care more that Him and His followers were disturbing public order and wanted to quash this new "fanatical" group, similar to how in modern-day times Jehovah's Witnesses are banned in Russia and Germany.My hubby also went to the store yesterday and got me a good haul of Easter chocolate reduced 50% so I have a good chocolate stash now to last a couple of months!

Yeah!!

Is it saddest some of us never know what we are or what we do. Is it saddest some of us know what we are and what we do and despite trying can NOT do better?-Kimbriana Beavers