Anam Cara.

Not too much going on here, except yesterday it was a glorious 20 C (supposed to be the same today and then rain for the weekend) and Buddy and I sat outside for a few hours. He is also my best friend, my soul mate and the one I feel the most connected to spiritually. I would just be so lost and bereft without him. I also noticed that the cloudiness in his eyes seems to have cleared up and his hernia is much better and smaller and not dragging down along the ground and he wasn't limping as much yesterday, and he hardly barked much,either, a blessing. As I was sitting out I also heard a guy next-door insulting me as I over-heard the asshole talking to someone else next-door, saying about me, She doesn't have to work and thinks she can just sit by the pool all day and listen to music.

Well, excuuuuse me f*ck-face but I'm retired after over 30 years of raising and homeschooling my 11 kids so you can just f*ck right off and kiss my ass.

I've earned my rest. 

It seems that rednecks always have this underlying jealousy and resentment of others that aren't of their group.

As I was sitting outside a butterfly also landed on me but it wasn't a Monarch; I'd had this vision before that just before I die a Monarch butterfly will land on me.

My pain is still just as bad it's agony and I just want to scream and I heard that Pertussis (Whooping Cough) is also going around ( also called the "100 day cough") which may be what all of us had going thru our house from the end of Feb. where we all sounded like walruses, had copious amounts of snot and were beyond fatigued, and it lasted over 6 weeks, and starting today for 3 days my hubby's in Niagara Falls for his niece's wedding and says he's stopping off in Toronto  on the way there to get the *proper* Darth Vader mask( at first the 29 YR old even thought he was purposely mixing a Vader costume with another mask when he was actually just being stupid) so I get a much-anticipated 3 day break too with him gone( yahoo!)

 I've been to 3 weddings in my lifetime, too( not incl,. my own, just like when you count how many countries you've been to you don't count the one you're from) my cousin's, a friend of my hubby's from work, and my brother-in-law's. I was trying to remember my hubby's work friend's name too whose wedding we went to 28 YRS ago and I couldn't; I remembered his wife's name(Josee) but not his and now it's driving me crazy and will continue to keep nagging at me until I can remember....and then I'll suddenly remember it at something like 2 am and wake up and sit upright in bed and exclaim, I've GOT it!! At first I thought it was Nicholas but that was his old room-mate.

The body has to go through pain, suffering and multi organ failure before the soul can escape.-Arpana Bandyopadyay