Fly Away.

I am grieving.

A 7 YR old boy( who has the same name as one my kids!) died yesterday.

He has been on my daily prayer list for months now.

He had cancer and probably one of the reasons it hit me so hard is it reminded me of the 26 YR old when he was fighting leukemia when he was 7 only this poor kid didn't make it. His lungs and kidneys had shut down and he was on ECMO, had daily dialysis and blood transfusions and the machines were keeping him alive and pumping his heart and blood and breathing for him and yet despite it all he was such a fighter and kept fighting the sedatiion trying to wake up, fighting to come back, fighting to live, and trying so hard to survive and his family and medical team also fought as hard as they could,too, exhausting all options until there was nothing left they could do and the ECMO starting clotting( which would eventually result in either a stroke or pulmonary embolism and kill him) and he was developing pneumothorax and his lungs were like cement.

They took him off life-support yesterday.😭

He went peacefully, flying away,free, now no longer suffering and finally at peace but it's just so sad for his poor family and his mother is just the same age as my second-oldest and this will be the second child she's lost,too, leaving her with just one child left now.

There is no greater pain than losing a child.

My heart is hurting so much today and he wasn't even my child  but I was hoping for a miracle and it makes me wonder,too, why did he and his family even have to go thru all this and all for nothing if he just ended up dying in the end anyway?

This is also the 29 YR old's ex-GF who lives in California(I'm still friends with her mother) trying on a wedding gown as she's getting married 10 Aug. and her fiance lives in Calabasas where alot of Hollywood celebs live and it's kind of sad though as I was hoping that she would be my daughter-in-law one day as I really thought her and the 29 YR old would eventually end up getting married and I really liked her. Oh, well, I guess God has other plans. I also heard on the news there was another shooting at a nightclub in Toronto and that's what really  worries me  the most too about the 29 YR old going to nightclubs and bars; fights, shootings, stabbings, etc. the risk of getting caught up in violence like that because nothing good ever comes out of  places like that, esp. at night and with the kinds of low-lifes that go to those places .I also decided with only 2 of the kids( the oldest and the 29 YR old) bothering to acknowledge me on Mother's Day and the others disowning me that I will also only acknowledge those same two kids in my inheritence(such as it is) as my kids and heirs when I die,too, and have disowned the others.

It works both ways.

It also reminds me of that Bible story where Jesus cured 10 lepers and only one came back to thank Him and He said, Were there not 10? Where are the other 9?

I also got this nice coconut caffeine shampoo that goes with the coconut coffee body bath scrub/wash and coconut coffeee body lotion I already have and it just smells so delicious , the kind of scent where you take a whiff and roll your eyes and just go Ooooooohh!! It doesn't smell like coffee like you'd think  though as coffee normally smells really awful and makes me gross and makes my stomach turn but this smells really nice and I just love it.

Again, it's the Little Things in life that bring me the most pleasure.

I also heard that Rasputin had a massive dick, over 10 inches long and also a massive girth as well so no wonder dude was so popular with the ladies and it wasn't just a legend or a rumor either because I actually saw it in a photo preserved in a jar and I must say it was highly impressive even a horse would envy it and he must have been some sort of Magic Man or prophet or something too because it took lots of cyanide, 5 bullets and being thrown into a freezing river before he could be killed. The Northern Lights are also visible in more places than usual lately making me wonder if it's also a sign of Jesus' imminent return, with unusual natural occurances, weather patterns, and disasters in the Last Days...

Against the grain should be a way of life What's worth the prize is always worth the fight.-Nickelback