Girlhood.

Yesterday as  Buddy and I were sitting out on the front veranda(where it's shadier and cooler) I saw 4-5 girls outside the front of the dance studio across the street in their leotards doing cartwheels and sitting in a little girl circle talking, giggling and laughing, reminding me of my own girlhood  making me smile,and bringing back happy childhood memories and can it really actually be over 50 years ago? Holy f*ck, I really am old! Oh, my god! I can't believe it!! I also saw The Man With The Black Dog walk by again and we talked about all the rock concerts we've been to and still want to go to and I swear that guy is my Brother From Another Mother, and yesterday I also noticed a temporary purple-ish rash go all on my face, nose, forehead, cheeks and part of my lip as well but then it went away but I have no idea what that was and it wasn't itchy(so not hives or an allergy) or anything. I also saw a Monarch butterfly as well and they've always been my faves ever since I was a kid and still are.I also can't visit my mother this Sunday as my hubby has to work so have to wait for 2 weeks until we can talk about "Old People stuff" again, like what most recently hurts and other various medical issues, etc. and L across the street used to have this dyke doing all her lawn maintenance for years,too, but now it's 2 guys so I hope the dyke hasn't died or anything but just moved away or retired.

We're still in another heatwave again as well and had a good storm last evening and another one this morning and just MY "luck" too; this morning right as soon as my daily  weekday daily events in history show was due to come on the radio I always listen to every weekday morning it went off and I missed it.

Of course.

Doesn't it figure?

I also had to get up 20 minutes earlier than I normally do because Buddy said he had to go pee. That's it; no more letting him have a drink before bed anymore. Toronto also got over 200 mm rain in July which almost beats a record(if they get over 6mm today it'll beat it, and most likely given how much heavy rain we're getting now) since the 50's  and the average for a month is 70 mm.

I also can't figure out why Texans and other Southern Americans say "Y'all" and what it's even supposed to mean. I mean, is that even English? I've been speaking English for decades and I never once ever learned that word...I also love feeling Buddy's warm little body pressed up against mine sleeping in bed and my biggest fear is one day to wake up and find him dead, cold, stiff, and hard beside me.

Israel's Mossad also killed another Hamas leader in Iran, and they sure have some nerve waging their terrorism and war in other countries ( Iran, Yemen, Lebanon) now,too, and yet no one stops them( I remember my friend M in grade 9 was born in Yemen,too, even though she was Chinese; in Aden, only back then it was called South Arabia and my friend V in grade 11 was born in Morocco even though she was Italian) and USA is also mad Venezuela elected a guy that they don't like( watch the CIA assassinate him now,too) even though it's none of their business and they're NOT the boss of the world(even if they think they are) and our old Toronto house was built in 1895 I figure as well as in 1980 it was 85 years old and this one we have now was in 1912 I think( the same year my Babushka was born) and I liked the house (I love old Century Victorian-style homes; they have character) but not Toronto itself as it's a run-down dirty "seedy" city with garbage and graffitti, crime, rude people,etc.I have to remind myself that we left for a reason.

A good sign you're in survival mode is that being around other people is extremely draining. And, the only time you ever feel relaxed or slightly at ease is when it's quiet or people are sleeping.-Dr. Nicole LePera