Chasing After It.

Look what my hubby picked up for me yesterday! The new book by Alex Van Halen about his life growing up with his famous brother in the Netherlands and moving to America and starting their band which became a biiiig hit and one quote he said that stuck with me was:

The sound he wanted was always out of reach;Ed spent his entire life chasing after it.

I can sort of relate to that,too; with everything in life; everything just always seems to be out of my reach and I spend my whole life chasing after it: love, happiness, inclusion, acceptance, being good enough, peace,hope, a purpose for living, a reason to keep holding on, etc.

Always chasing yet always out of reach.

I must be getting old too because I used to be able to easily finish off a 400-500 page book in 4 hours or so and this one is relatively small as far as books go, just over 200 pages and yet I only finished half yesterday and have to finish the rest today.

I also visited my mother yesterday(here I am wearing my new jacket) and I saw this person at the LTC home in a wheelchair  being pushed around all covered up under a white blanket except for the face peeking out and it made me laugh as it reminded me of E.T and that scene in the movie where Elliot has E.T. bundled up on the front of his bike! HA! This morning at 3 am I also was woken up by this splitting headache I still have and I'm also really dizzy too so it's a good thing I visited my mother yesterday afterall and not today. My friend P( from grade 6) who just got back from Greece is now in Cuba with 30 of her friends( I don't even know  30 people!) and now she's retired she can just go from one trip right to the next(although I don't know where she gets all the $$$ from but knowing her she probably has an OnlyFans account) and even before when she worked she still travelled 2-3 times a year.

Some people are just sooo lucky!

We also got a re-newal notice for my mother's handicapped parking sticker and they need a copy of proof of age, etc. but I couldn't find her birth certificate anywhere(and it wasn't in her wallet like I would have expected) but that thing is 83 years old,too, but luckily I still have her passport, up in the safe with all the others, so we can use that, and I had her sign the form yesterday when I visited her, and today is also my hubby's birthday and he's 61 but likes to reverse it and joke he's 16.

If I did that it would make me even older; I would be 75!

Someone online also asked me about what I think about the World Series and I replied "I couldn't care less about football" and they said "It's baseball."

Yeah, well, I couldn't care less about baseball, either.

Last night the 30 YR old also went to a haunted house for Satan's Day  I'm NOT happy about even though he's an adult and can do what he wants it still doesn't mean that I have to like it and the other night he went to a costume party too( even though he just told me he went to a bar and sang) and even won first prize( wearing my hubby's Darth Vader) and yesterday he helped his boss build a shed but wore a Tommy Hilfiger cable-knit sweater, hardly the thing to wear but he said he didn't even realize it was a designer, because it wasn't Gucci or Ives St. Laurent and that if an item is less than 1K it isn't "worthy".

Ugh!

Spare me!!

It hurts us the most when we try to reach out and can't.-Nadine Hightower