Bollocks.

Look what I found in the bathroom last night!

HA!

It belongs to the 30 YR old( naturally.....who else?)😂

Ball deoderant! Who would have even thought of such a thing? I never even knew such a thing even existed and I just laughed soooo hard I seriously almost peed my pants! He said he got it in a surprise gift bag at a party at A friend of ours, plural, meaning a friend of him and his GF, not realizing that he officially "outed" them as a couple, as opposed to just saying "a friend of mine" but by saying ours, despite his repeated denial she's his GF and insisting she's "just his friend".he admitted that they're a couple,just as I suspected. Yeah, I never believed it,anyway, but I'm happy for him and glad he's found someone (and why else would he even need ball deoderant for,anyway? I can see how he now also has an extra "spring" in his step too, and he's always singing and just looks so happy  lately and I'm glad for him and who knows, maybe he's even found The One  and his soulmate(which would be nice) but at least he's happy for now and enjoying the moment in the meantime, and I'm glad too he met her at a party instead of just picking her up at a bar,(which would be cheap and sleazy) which I find much more reassuring and makes me feel better.

He also says he "doesn't know me well enough" to tell me personal stuff and I was like Whaaat? I mean, I just grew him and carried him in my body for 9 months and launched him out of my womb( and came close to almost stopping breathing in labour with him too and the medical staff were on stand-by to revive me,too!) and fed him with my own breasts and probably know him better than anybody...and yet he says he doesn't know me enough and we're not "close" enough? What the actual f*ck, man? Is he kidding me?When I told him mothers never stop worrying about their kids even once they're grown up he was surprised and goes, Really? and I told him that my mother still worries about me!

It's "funny" too how the 25 YR old's curent BF is stuck-up(and I just get this "vibe" from him) and her ex-BF wasn't even though he was from a rich family and even had a Porsche as a teen but he was actually way more friendlier and nicer and I liked him better, but maybe it also has to do with living in Ottawa though too as I noticed when we lived there that it's a very stuck-up "snooty" place esp. compared to anywhere else I've lived, and yesterday my hubby over-did it again too and played pickleball for 3-4 hours, figuring his new orthotics work so well so why not...duuuh....and then comes back limping really bad and saying his "foot hurts".

Well, no shit.

 He over-did it like always, never giving things enough times to heal, and he thinks that I'M the impatient one?

But the regret remains, a bittersweet scar on my heart, a testament to a painful lesson learned too late.-"Human."