Abstract.

Today I received a parcel from my hubby's work with this glass ornament (shown above here)in it along with a note sending their condolences on my mother's death( and tomorrow it will be exactly 2 weeks even though it feels much longer and I'm still in a daze and can't believe she's really actually gone) and a note saying they had a tree planted in her honour. I remember a few years ago when my hubby's father died they sent him a nice plant I named Robert Plant( after the Led Zeppelin frontman, plus it's also a plant,too...get it?) that eventually died because the 30 YR old kept burning it and plucking the leaves off it, which must be the new Enviro-freak thing to do but the ironic thing is that she( just like me) hated those Enviro-freaks and tree-huggers and would have preferred flowers or a plant, which she actually liked. Part of me just wants to smash it in anger(and then felt guilty, making me feel even worse!) and I was just suddenly so overcome with sadness and rage it all just came out of nowhere and I just suddenly burst into tears. I think everything's just all starting to finally come "out" now and everything I had all bottled up inside and suppressed over the past 2 weeks just came to the surface.

Buddy's mouth only bled 3 times today( so far ,but it's just past 6 pm) incl. one really big one after he ate(and his water dish turned all red,too) but still better than yesterday when it was many times and the first time today didn't even start until the afternoon and one of my cousins in Europe said my sunflower painting is a "nice Abstract work of art" too even though it wasn't really meant to be Abstract but it just somehow turned out that way but I guess it's like me and my life; Abstract without meaning to be,and I also heard Stairway To Heaven again today,too, so that's 3 days in a row and I'm hoping it means I'm going to die soon, and I also have this reaaallly baaad headache all day as well I just can't get rid of.I also heard on my California radio station they can win free groceries for 40 years, being 500$ a month...shit....we pay over 600$ a week! Here in the Shithole things always cost waaaay too much!!

I also can't help but wonder if the apocalyptic fires in California(I bet Kelly Clarkson is sure glad she left and moved to NYC!) are also some sort of "punishment" from God for all the Satanists and pedophiles that are rampant in Hollywood and in the entertainment industry(fire is the devil's only friend), or just more signs of extreme and unusual weather patterns and natural disasters in the Last Days and End Times but at least the celebs would have good insurance, and unlike people, houses and things can be replaced, like we found out after our fire. I also heard you have to pay a 350K entry fee to run for Liberal Party leader, so only the rich  1% can afford it, leaving out the Average Joe so only the elites can run, elitist as always. I also said how my ass is too big for the new padded toilet seat and the hole is too small and my bounteous booty hangs over the edges and the 30 YR old cracked, I guess it's time to go on a diet and lose weight! even though I have been taking something similar to Ozempic  for over a year now and have lost weight but my family just seems to have a way of always making me feel badly no matter what.

Wake up, it's a beautiful day Wake up, don't you hear what I say? 'Cause I be rocking in my shoes To this sweet reggae groove Ain't nobody gonna spoil my mood.-Shaggy