Not much going on lately, but here's a cute photo of Buddy when he fell asleep. I also love feeling his warm little body snuggled up against me in bed at night or during nap-time; it's just so comforting and warms my heart. I can't believe he turns 19 next month either! That's something like 92 in Dog Years! This morning I also woke up with a *really* swollen sore throat full of "gunk" I wonder might be Strep, and maybe that's why I was so tired yesterday and just wanted to sleep all day? I thought it was because it was so dull out( it rained and washed most of the snow away but this week going into a Polar Vortex deep freeze like -30C) and also the residual drugs left in my system from the suicide attempt (I never told anyone about,either, because no one cares)the night before(and next time I'll just have to try another way, like perhaps hanging, electrocution, or set myself on fire?), but maybe I'm coming down with something? I also hate my saggy, wrinkly "Turkey" neck; it looks like a scrote, and if I ever have the $$$ I'm getting it fixed, along with the "puppet lines" on my mouth.
Good news! We were finally able to get the home insurance re-newed afterall; we told them to just name it as "In trust of the estate" like the lawyer suggested instead of in my mother's name until I'm officially on the deed, and it's been 3 weeks since she died too but it feels much longer and I still can't believe she's really gone though, it still seems surreal, and now all I have left are photos and memories, and I just hope when my hubby and I do IT that she's NOT able to see(as I heard people on the Other Side can look back and still see loved ones on this side) and that she turns her head away and closes her eyes for that, and it makes me feel awkward ,self-conscious,and unsettled thinking she might be watching, and they had an ad for a roast pork supper for a charity too on the radio making me think how do they say No Jews and no muslims without actually saying so....
My final act of love is staying away from u for the rest of my life-Jynx
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