Basket Case.

I am a complete and utter basket case yesterday and today.

I spent HOURS sitting and waiting in the ER yesterday(I didn't get back until 11 pm,) and last night with the 30 YR old who had to go back with his concussion as he was getting worse.

His GF told us she took him in at 2 pm as he slept for over 15 HRS and was hard to wake up, vomited, had a baaaad headache, was dizzy and unsteady and couldn't balance or walk. Then her and my hubby told me to join them so I could "advocate" for him(to make sure they do a CT scan and don't just brush him off) as I'm, well, known to kick ass and to be aggressve, assertive,and a fighter. My hubby even thought I'd get kicked out of the hospital by security, ha,ha! He didn't even get to the back to be seen by the doctor until 9 pm and get the scan until 9:30 pm and in the meantime he kept getting worse(slurred speech, falling asleep,his drink spilling out of his mouth, blurry vision) and I had to go back to the nurse in Triage 3 times  to update them of his worsening condition and at least they did re-do his vitals but still  made him wait that long, even with a head injury, a diagnosed concussion he got 2 days before!

I saw as they even let an old lady with a sore arm and another old lady with a sore back( minor things!) go in ahead of him and I was furious! I HATE this shithole! It's like a half-assed Third World country and there was only 1 doctor and 1 nurse even there in the entire ER! Thakfully the scan was "normal"; no skull fracture or brain bleed; just a really bad concussion and now he has to take it easy and no work for a week, and stay in the dark( light hurts his eyes,too) and rest, and no screen-time( no texts, TV, computer) no reading, concentrating, etc. When it was time to take him to the back they said only one of us could go back with him and he wanted his GF but I pulled rank and told them *I* was going in "Mothers outrank GFs."

Then she left and went back home and had a break and I stayed.

I was(and still am) a basket case.

I feel like a zombie, like I'm on auto-pilot and have jet-lag , just completely over-whelmed with anxiety, worry, and stress, I feel like Job in the Bible with everything bad all happening  at once and so many losses and the 30 YR old huffed, It's NOT about YOU! and I never said it was, but it does concern me and affect  me and I still do have feelings and I've just been thru so much lately( losing my mother, my friend, Buddy, and now this,too) it's just so overwhelming and I crashed and burned.

How many hits can I possibly take?

The BC girls were also originally planning on going to a Fillipino festival in Vancouver on Saturday as well but changed their mind which was good as a madman rammed a car into the crowd killing 11 people! I'm so glad God kept them safe!

The gate on our porch doesn't close either(esp. if it's windy it opens) and I don't want Beja running out and I asked my hubby to put a lock on it but he never did( he always takes his sweet time) so I improvised in the meantime; I used my old stretched-out broken bathingsuit to tie it together,. I was gone so long yesterday as well poor Beja had separation anxiety and when I got back he was just soooo happy to see me he practically did flips in the air  and someone yesterday said they liked my tan and asked if I've been away and I said,"Just in my backyard" and I can tell the 30 YR old loves his GF too as he kept giving her sappy "goo-goo" eyes and she calls him My Love as well and it's just so sweet and she fawns all over him and takes good care of him, and even over-does it too and "babies" him ,like hand-feeding him chips putting them into his mouth and then dabbing the sides of his mouth with a moist towelette,, and he said he wants to marry her,too, but "has to wait a few years" even though it's already been a year and I told him he doesn't; if he already knows she's The One; the only reason people takes years to decide is because they're not sure and they're just waiting to see if someone "better" comes along in the meantime. Today's also voting day and I hope it's not a long line and I don't have to wait long because I didn't get much sleep last night and I still feel all sick and faint.

I'm a wreck.

Also: if the Liberals actually win again will NOT help me feeling suicidal!!

"Well done, thou good and faithful servant" (Mt 25:21).