Nothingness.

Here are more clothes I saw online I will never buy because I'm tired of being ripped-off and also because I hopefully won't even be alive long enough to even wear them and get my $$$ worth.

I just miss Buddy so much.

I don't know how to live withiout him and I don't want to.

I should have died with him.

He was my whole life, my entire world. my reason to live, my everything.

Getting him was the best thing to ever happen to me in my life and losing him was the worst.

Now I have nothing left.

Life is so empty now and I'm just waiting to die.

I hope he knows how much I love him. 

The day I brought his ashes home that night I tried to end it again by drinking what should have been poison and should have killed me.....except it just tasted so awful I could only stomach a bit of it and then I felt really sick but all day yesterday I pretty much just slept all day and I felt really "out" of it and all "spacey". and still feel like that today,too.

I simply have no will to live.

I also had to switch my pizza; I normally get a pepperoni one and give the pepperoni to Buddy but now he's not here anymore I have no one to share with anymore so I just got a mushroom one. The 23 YR old also comes home from Italy today.

Life goes on, just not for me.

Without Buddy by my side my life is over now.

He was all I had.

Empty vessels sound loudest.-Leo Smith