Happenings.

Here is my cousin SCUBA diving in the Red Sea and we still haven't seen Tony The Fence yet and I've sort of just given up on him actually and don't really expect to see him and we'll be lucky if we even get the fence fixed by the end of summer, and the 30 YR old will finally be getting his unemployment $$$ he's been waiting for since January( that's been 5 months!) as they've finally resolved whatever problem they had with his birth certificate and he'll be getting all back pay and may even be able to pay off his credit card debt(or at least part of it) and  today every towel in the house is in the laundry and yesterday Beja came frantically running downstairs to me scared  and trembling and telling me something bit his ass so my guess would be whatever animal must have come in the house from outside and is hiding out somewhere in the house and must be nocturnal because we never see it and my guess is it hides out under someone's bed all day.

I also heard a 13 YR old near Toronto randomly just stabbed this woman to death outside her home and now they're starting so young  and the radio station was giving away a prize to see redneck wrestling and awhile ago to see boring golf and I swear they have the worst prizes not even worth calling in for, and I heard there's a charity marathon called Walk For Brain at first I thought said was Walk For Brian and I thought to myself, Who the hell is Brian? ha,ha.The dinky little fair is also in town again and I remember when the kids were teens they used to go to it with their friends and it only has something pitiful like 6 rides.

I also like this shirt, and  I'm remembering funny times from my childhood,too, which  incl. the time I told my mother my highschool French teacher "gave me a French Kiss" and she was horrified until I explained to her it was a kiss on both cheeks; she thought I meant with tongue( ha,ha, no, ewwww) and when I was little I always thought that when people were hung it was by their feet upside-down( and not by their neck) but the reason why was I had seen a photo of Mussolini and he WAS hanging upside-down by his feet, and being autistic( although no one knew at the time why) I've always been "emotionally immature" and got along better with younger kids than kids my own age, and as a teen neighbours whispered about me I was a pedophile because I hung around the younger kids and it wasn't true of course, and it broke my heart. It's just my body was grown up but my mind wasn't.

I also wonder if the reason maybe I didn't die with Buddy like I wanted was because God is now giving me a new chapter in life now the kids are grown up and I'm starting over again and going to actually live  and not  just survive  and I can feel I'm actually healing now too  after losing my mother and Buddy and can even feel something "shifting" , and a reassuring feeling that my mother and Buddy are happy on the Other Side and that I'm going to be OK.

I'm not expected to grow flowers in the desert.-Big Country