Blessed Relief.

Today we finally have blessed relief from that heatwave we've had for the past 7 days! This morning it's a nice refreshing 13 C instead of feeling like 34 C at 6 am like yesterday and I was even able to have my bedroom window open last night and have a nice breeze instead of needing the A/C and today just a high of 25 C (I think is the perfect temp) and NO humidity! Yay! Yesterday I couldn't even go outside but today I should be able to be out all day! I also always had this feeling ever since I was a kid that there's going to be a thunderstorm on the day I die,too, so it will be interesting to see if that will actually be true or not. The 30 YR old also said his boss went to the most redneck thing yesterday,too: a rodeo and I agree and it has to be one of the most redneck things ever, along with country music, sports, wrestling, darts, pool, and NASCAR! As I was on on the couch last night watching the news Beja also ran past with something in his mouth he pilfered and I said to him, What have you got now? and the 30 YR old said, Why don't you get up and see? implying I'm lazy, and everything he says to me and  the way he always speaks to me and the tone he always uses is always just so disrespectful and condescending; just like my hubby, which is where he learned it from.

The 27 YR old is also coming in from Edmonton next month on the 17th for 2 weeks and my hubby said I have to go to the CNE (the "Ex") that day(as he's already in Toronto picking him up at the airport) even though it's a Sunday and I HATE going on weekends as it's always so crowded, and even worse,too: OPENING weekend so I'm really hoping he'll let me go the next week and it really bums me out and I'm tired of always getting the "short end of the stick"  and never having any choice,

 I'm just told.

  I  laugh still remembering learning to rollerskate in the cemetary as well; my mother always brought me there as it was paved and they had sidewalks and there were no cars and hardly any people to laugh when I fell, and it was quiet, and once my hubby loses his job(he thinks before Christmas) he also loses employee benefits too which means I also lose my medication coverage so I'll have to go OFF all my meds,too, so I hope I die before then and everyone will be better off without me anyway: not only will I be set free and not have to worry about no longer having an income or losing my house but they'll also get $$$ from my life insurance to help them for awhile and they can sell the house and downsize, plus they'll also be rid of me,too, so everybody wins!

I do not care how bad life gets I'm not watching Love Island