If I Croak.

I had to go to the ER yesterday.

Forced, against my will.

As you know, I've been having these killer headaches all week(I just assumed was the low air pressure), but yesterday it was even worse and felt like my head was going to explode, as well as throbbing and pulsing and I was also really dizzy and nauseated and just laid down indoors in the cool shade all day and something prompted me to check my BP so I did.....

and it was 192/106!

My highest yet( yay)

Hypertensive crisis( see below).

So my hubby and the 30 YR old forced me to go to the ER even though I had no intention of waiting there for some 6-8 HRS(esp. when I felt so bad I just wanted to lay down) and esp. NOT go just for a headache and high BP but the 30 YR old threatened to call 911 and get an ambulance(which I think is over-the-top) and even tried to grab me and pick me up in a jiu-jitsu hold and carry me out to the car if I didn't go willingly and my hubby bribed me with my fave. dish at my fave. Italian place(like a dog I'm food motivated, ha,ha) if I went "and gave it at least 45 minutes" so off I went....

...and there was only ONE other person there( which never happens!) not even the nurse at Triage and at first I thought there was some sort of evacuation("Where did all the people go?") but then the nurse came and I got evaluated and reg'd.....and they informed me my health card had expired back in January even though they never even sent me a reminder in the mail ahead of time like they always do so now I have to go down to Service Ontario this week and re-new it and get a new photo.

Shit.

I thought ok, good, maybe I'll be in and out quickly.

No such luck( it is me, remember)

 They had 4 ambulances come in and so I sat and waited for 2 1/2 hours before I finally just gave up and left and went back home.

I'd rather just die peacefully at home than wait forever.

F*ck that!

When I got home Beja was so happy to see me you would have thought I was away  for months and I also decided that next time my BP is high I'm NOT even going to mention it to anyone and just keep my big mouth shut. Yesterday he also wouldn't leave my side all day; he must have sensed I didn't feel well. I still don't and I'm hoping this is it and will finally be my chance to be set free and be reunited with Buddy again. Maybe it will be tomorrow on the 13th, a day my mother said was always bad luck for her., Friday or not. I also told my hubby last night before I went up to bed if I DO croak I made him promise to take good care of Beja for me and to NOT get rid of him or re-home him.

I also saw a Daddy Longlegs spider in the tub this morning but I didn't kill it and just let it be; it deserves to live and it wasn't bothering me in any way,  Yesterday my hubby also bawled me out for doing the laundry at my normal time as he was in the shower even though HE was the one who slept in late and had his shower later than ususal but as always he expects everyone else to work around him and his schedule(but thinks disrupting mine is ok) and today it's also supposed to get up to 33C and we're to have a heatwave all week as well and the 27 YR old agreed to come later next month from Edmonton to do our fence and that way he can also go to the CNE and Fan Expo in Toronto at the same time,too, and I haven't seen him in years, and my hubby said the 24 YR old had a client who was so happy with the dye-job she gave her that she tipped her 60% and it was something like 100$! Wow, just wow! That's awesome!

This was also our plastic food storage containers always piling up and falling down and I suggested maybe we should get a really big plastic tub to put them in to keep it a bit neater and organized and so they don't keep falling down in an avalanche of plastic all the time and so my hubby sort of did; he got a plastic laundry basket to put them in but they barely fit and still overflow over the top.

I actually meant more like a big Rubbermaid storage container.

Pfffftttttt.

He also tried to make a smoothie yesterday( and when I was also trying to nap and had that massive headache and the loud grinding of the blender didn't help) and it didn't work;just a big chunky lump and he asked me what he was doing wrong; he just had the fruit and the yogurt( which he had frozen, and only the fruit should be frozen, not the yogurt) and I told him, How about adding some liquid so it can blend? Something like almond milk, oat milk, or juice. and he said he never had any but luckily I had some pineapple juice so he used that and it finally worked.

For someone who claims to be a Mensa genius I swear he can be really dumb!😂

It's sad to realize I have no dreams anymore. I'm just waiting to die now.