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This morning it's the coldest yet: 5 C! Yesterday I brought my hanging plants inside from the veranda before the frost and it's supposed to go up to 23 C or so (and all week) after the high only being 18 C for the past few days but it's cold at night and in the morning. Yesterday I also saw a Monarch butterfly twice; in the morning and in the afternoon and it also kept flying close to me and circling above me and we're starting to lower the pool water for the winter so when it freezes it has room to expand and the dance studio across the street also had 3 HVAC trucks  there all day yesterday so maybe she's getting a new furnace? I also noticed I have a new,now my third, lipoma, this one on my left ankle(I also have them on my right ankle and right wrist) making me wonder if I maybe even have liposarcoma? Today is also the day I would have left for Jamaica too except it wasn't all-inclusive like I'd originally thought(it didn't incl. meals) so would have end up costing twice as much.

Trump also is threatening to attack Venezuela, claiming it's due to the drug cartels when we all know it's really for their oil( the same reason USA invaded Iraq)  and had hundreds of South Korean workers rounded up, shackled, and deported from a Hyundai plant, and deployed National Guard in D.C and is planning in Chicago as well, saying it's due to crime when it's really gov't over-reach and a Police State and now people aren't even going out in the streets anymore, like Martial Law.He's such a Fascist dictator and USA is the bully of the world and really should just mind their own business.

Yesterday Beja also came up and snuggled with me during nap up at my pillow beside my head(which is progress) and then in bed at night came back to burrowing under the covers with me again but then at 3 am I remember I moved my legs and he squawked and scurried back up to the pillow again and my hubby said to me, Would you care for some coitus?(he's just like Sheldon in The Big Bang Theory) as we thought no one was home and we were home alone....except it turned out the 30 YR old was home the whole time, just up in his room, so it was a good thing he didn't come down and walk in on the middle of us and catch us....oh, god, would that  ever be awkward and embarrassing, and it also makes me wonder if that's maybe what happened in bed that traumatized Beja and why he avoids bed now? Towards the end of(and afterwards)  of The Deed my chest also hurt and felt like someone was sitting on it  and it was hard to breathe and I really wondered if I was having a heart-attack.

The 30 YR old( who now mostly lives pretty much at his GF's and I wonder what her room-mates think of that, although she owns the house so I guess it doesn't really matter) hacked my Facebook  to promote and advertise his new lash business and he didn't even ask me either; he just informed me and I told him just as long as it doesn't reveal my location and we'd discuss it after I was done watching the news...but when I was done he had already done it, and it did , and even though our enemy is no longer after us and we don't have to hide anymore I still don't want everyone knowing where I live, and he even added likes and comments from my page saying it was me that I had no idea about. I also wonder how Those Women can afford all those expenses every month as well: eyelashes, manicures, spray tans, lip injections, hair cuts and dye, etc. costing hundreds of $$$$ a month but I guess Only Fans must pay well. He says you prioritize the "important" things( he meant beauty) but I think  rent, bills, food, etc. are priorities. The rest is just "fluff."

It's so hard, and I have to force myself to survive.-Stephanie Nielson