Tom & Ziva.

A few days ago I e-mailed my hubby telling him I found a new TV show that was streaming I wanted to watch. I don't even watch any shows except for the news and this new one is on a spin-off from 2 characters from NCIS my mother used to watch so I asked him if he could find it and download episodes for me as I saw  the previews and it looked good. I thought it was called Tom & Ziva..... and then he replies, It's called Tony & Ziva. Yeah....that's the one! HA!So he got 3 episodes but I still haven't seen it yet as I'm waiting for a raining day where I'm stuck inside all day. I'm not wasting a nice outside day inside watching TV. All week it's been a nice  summer-y 23/24C and the same this upcoming week as well and Thursday even going up to 28C! It's hard to believe it's almost mid-September! Today is also day 4 or 5(I've lost track) of my agonizing stomach, abdomenal, and back pain(I hardly mention it though because no one really  actually cares,anyway) and I also noticed I now have a 4th lipoma, this one on my left wrist, now for a grand total of one on each wrist and on each ankle.

Shit, maybe I really actually DO have liposarcoma?

Yesterday I also saw 6 hawks circling ahead but luckily Beja wasn't out at the time and I heard a nice girl's name: Fenna I think is probably Irish (or at least sounds Irish)and I heard the last cast member of the TV show Alice I used to watch as a kid in the 70's has died and the entire cast of The Golden Girls is also all dead now as well and most of the cast of Night Court, Laverne & Shirley, Three's Company, and What's Happening!! as well except for 1 or 2 people and it's sad and makes me feel really old,too! I also think I really need to get away and go on a trip as I've had so much stress, loss, and grief lately  I need a break and I figure now who cares what it costs; why just keep the $$$ in my bank account and not use it, esp. when I so desperately need to get away? 

Yesterday was also a good day with Beja; we got lots of cuddle time and the 30 YR old didn't "hog" him up for once. I really missed him and it was nice having him back again. It felt like I didn't even have a dog and he's not only my dog and my friend but also my only emotional support,  comfort, and someone and something to live for  since Buddy died, but he's still become suddenly fearful and skittish and runs away and hides and doesn't play or go on the bed like he used to and I just wish I knew why and what happened to him. It's almost as if his entire personality has changed!

I also found out that Charlie Kirk guy( who I never even heard of until he got shot and killed and now it's all over and you can't miss it)  was actually a PRO-gun advocate who said school shootings were "worth" it to have  gun rights and they say he was also a white supremacist who hated Blacks, women, gays, minorities, immigrants,etc. and was an asshole but even so he still didn't "deserve" to get shot and killed and he had a wife and young kids. If you don't like someone just ignore them; you don't kill them, and him dying by being shot is also  kind of ironic, karmic and poetic though, and they caught the shooter and it's the typical white male in his 20's and he's a Mormon,too, which is shocking and I know lots of Mormons and they're NOT gun freaks like that! He was also groomed in gun culture by his family since childhood ,too, which is NO different than the Taliban or ISIS training up kids to be terrorists so why is it any surprise he ended up doing what he did?

Yeah, it was hard to give up Some things are hard to let go Some things are never enough I guess, I only can hope.-Tom Petty