Autumn Daze.

I was originally going to post this tomorrow but I really don't feel good and my liver and kidney areas hurt so in case I die  overnight I decided to post it now just so nothing is left unposted, unsaid, or untold, you know, just in case. This is a bunch of squash the almost 31 YR old was cooking today for his squash soup( shown below) and he also ate most of  my loaf of French bread too that's supposed to last me a week and I only got something like 3 slices of it and he also ate most of my stuffed turkey as well I only got 4 pieces of that, and he did break up with his GF just as I suspected; first he said they "took a little break" but then he said she'd had this big thing planned for his birthday  tomorrow and cancelled(that was mean!) and they've broken up now and I'm shocked actually as they got along so well and I asked him what happened and he just shrugged, Things just didn't work out. I'm sad for him though as I really thought he was going to marry her but at least now he'll leave my olive oil alone.😁

I also asked him if the cocaine I found in the bathroom the other day was his and he denied it , saying he Doesn't like cocaine and doesn't like the way it makes me feel ,saying it makes him too hyper (I suspect he has ADHD, anyway)and I told him that's sort of the point; it's a stimulant and people take it to give them energy, but that enough is my answer right there.

It must be his.

Either for his own use or to sell.

How would he know how cocaine makes him feel unless he's had it before?

I asked him and he said he did(I assume at 'Da Club or at a party?) so it's not out of the realm of possibility that it could belong to him,and now more likely so than anyone else, and then he tried deflecting and trying to blame others like his siblings, and tried to convince me it was powdered hair bleach( even though I know what hair bleach smells like and this was odourless like cocaine and I know what cocaine looks and smells like,too; I wasn't born yesterday) and he didn't want to discuss it....

I think I have my answer.

I am disappointed though.

...and why did he leave it in the bathroom?

Today Beja oddly was affectionate to me again; this morning he curled up on my pillow next to my head and licked my face and he was sitting up on my lap as I was at the computer and snuggled up with me on the couch as well and that's the way it should be; loving both of us and not just  leaving me for him. I wonder what made him start coming back to me though? It's almost as if a spell had been cast and then it wore off .Either that, or he senses I'm dying and wants to say goodbye? Tomorrow is also going to go up to 21C but rain and then LOTS of rain Sunday( maybe even a storm) and over 90KM wind and then rain the rest of the week and cooler. Ugh. Now I can't even sit outside until the afternoons because the mornings are too cold. I think my outside time is soon coming to an end.

So you're scared, and you're thinking That maybe we ain't that young anymore.-Bruce Springsteen