Outta Here.

Beja and I were lucky to get 2 HRS out in the sun today before it rained and this morning he even came over and snuggled beside my head on my pillow and licked my face, oddly, but I enjoyed it. I also couldn't find my body wash, the  sea salt & Pacific kelp one(and I can't even find it in stores and can only order off Amazon), it was missing from it's usual spot,and I just knew  the 31 YR old had taken it as he's always taking other people's stuff, mostly mine; when he wants something he just takes it...just like how he took my dog....and so I checked and sure enough the evidence was there: where he has his shower downstairs there it was....right beside his empty bottle of the exact same thing, just like how he did with the leave-in hair conditioner before and took mine when his ran out(instead of just buying a new one) as I have the same one.

I'm just sooooo tired of his disrespecting me and my stuff....and lying.

As if that wasn't bad enough  he also lied right to my face and denied it and even blamed the 18 YR old even though he has his own bodywash and has his shower in another room upstairs!

He also kept goading me and when I exploded into a rage, screaming at him and I tossed a bowl of Rotini pasta into his lap in a fury he went off on me and him and my hubby kept blaming me  for getting mad,  for how I reacted, and NOT that he once again stole from me, and they said I was "acting like a child" and "over-reacting" and " a psycho" and "should control my emotions" etc. but I'm just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sick and tired of his shit and of always being disrespected and of him always stealing my stuff and no one cares, yet when I  react and get mad somehow it's my fault. He even threatened to call the police and have me charged with assault and I told him I can also just as easily call them and have him evicted.

DON'T 'TRY' ME.

I've had enough and I have nothing to lose anymore.

and one way or the other I'm outta here.

This is also the pretty orange tree, now practically naked(my hubby calls it "tree porn") and  he said someone in his chess chatroom killed himself at age 29 due to depression and cyberbullying and I know what that feels like ( depression and being bullied) so I hope now he's finally found the happiness and peace that eluded him and I wonder how he did it though as maybe I can try it and hopefully it will work for me,too? I also asked the Alexa Home Device to "Play Cinderella" and it turned on the TV and started to play the Disney movie but I was actually talking about playing music from the band  Cinderella, and I re-did Billy Joel's song Uptown Girl  to White Trash Girl and someone online also posted these gross photos of her cuts all on her arms she made with a razor and half a cup of blood she got from it and what made me incredulous was all the comments she got saying how it was "cool" and "sexy" and they "wanted to drink the blood", etc.

People are just SO sick!

I can't wait until I get outta this place.

.From that day on he just gave up his will to live. No matter what we did he was always sad…you could feel the pain he was feeling .-Christine