Daily Thought.

 

Burned Out.

This is one of my candles, burned out right down to the wick and the flame just went out. 

Poof!

It was gone.

It was done.

I know exactly how it feels.

I feel exactly the same way and I can sympathize.

I'm all burned out,too.

I've burned out my entire wick and now there's nothing left anymore.

Nothing more left to burn.

 Nothing left.

All burned out and done.

We also got snow( and it's still snowing now) and I got some cool photos(see below) at just the perfect right time; before sunrise, with the freshly-fallen sparkling snow, just the way I like it. They said we might get 10-15 cm and even have a special weather warning but then also supposed to go up to 3 C later in the day and rain and wash it all away.

F*ck.

Good things never last for long.

That's why we have photos and memories.

Now the 31 YR old also has the Disco-ball-style lightbulbs for his room,too, like I got, only he got 2 of them and my hubby thought of the perfect gift idea for me for Christmas as well: a weighted blanket! It will be comforting/sensory for my autistic ass and I've wanted one for quite awhile now but wasn't willing to spend all that $$$ just on a blanket. Yesterday I also had this weird stabbing pain behind my right eye I suppose to likely be sinus or perhaps an impending stroke or aneurysm about to pop, and I had changed the name on the Google Home Device  so when my hubby talked to it yesterday it replied back, Good morning, Big Pimp Daddy! and  he goes, Ahhhhhh!!! and ran up the stairs! Ha,ha!! It was so funny!I also heard the band Motorhead got their name as it's apparantly slang for drug addict. Who knew? Certainly not me; I thought it was just slang for a biker, or a motorcycle enthusiast! HA!

The 31 YR old was also home all day and not with his GF as usual( he said she was out shopping all day) so Beja was with him all day and even when both of us were hanging out in the livingroom at the same time, him on one couch and me another couch way across the other end of the room he still chose to sit with him and not me and it really hurts  that even my own dog loves someone else more than he loves me, but he has a good temperment otherwise, esp. for a Chihuahua; he's very affectionate and hardly even barks; just when someone's at the door or too close to our property and he's NOT "yappy" and he doesn't snap or bite. He likes to snuggle, cuddle,and give kisses. He is, however, a very spoiled diva.😂

People who sleep while hugging a pillow are the most touch starved people ever.-21 on X

 

Today's Musing.

 

Still Here.

Later yesterday and today still I have this really weird headache: it's only on the right side of my head! Usually I have them it's on the entire head, not just on one side, making me wonder if it's maybe a stroke or aneurysm brewing?  I also experienced a Glitch In The Matrix yesterday as well: I was listening to the radio and they played the same song twice, back-to-back, as soon as it ended it played all over again and I felt like I was in a time warp or a deja-vu, and it's so windy it keeps setting off our security system as well; it sets off the alarm saying the doors are open and keeps beeping and it's soooooo annoying. My cough's also sooooooooooo baaaaaaaaaaad it kept waking me up during the night and I heard Stairway To Heaven twice yesterday,too!

...and I swear I also saw my mother in the dining room: a shadowy hazy version of her,anyway, and it was short and stout like her and had her same short white hair,too. She never said anything, just sort of quickly "floated" by.

Israel also bombed Syria yet again, killing innocent people using their usual rhetoric that they were "terrorists" who attacked them first( yeah.....riiiight...they were protesting their land being invaded) and yet no one says a thing or ever does anything, and I saw on the news real Christmas trees cost in the range of 130$ or so now and I can still remember when they were just 45$ and now fake ones are like 500$ or so and I just paid 200$ for my flocked tree 5 years or so ago. Things are just soooooooooooooo expensive now and keep going up in price and are so unaffordable now! Holy shit!

Yesterday Beja also came up to me and sniffed me and looked like he'd had some sort of revelation or realization and then he hopped up onto me and just laid on my chest nuzzling into my neck, and it was almost as if he'd suddenly remembered  me, that I was the one who had him first and loved him first and was his Person before the 31 YR old came along, or as if some curse or spell had been lifted off him. It was really weird but I'm grateful he remembered he once loved me.

Hopefully he'll still come back to me.

I still don’t get the concept behind life. What exactly are we here for?- Oku

 

Saturday Stuff.

Or their dog.

Better be careful driving that sleigh!

Suck my dick at the same time!😂

Just trying to stay alive.

My Spirit Animal.

Just as you are.

For all my American peeps.

Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home And freedom, oh freedom, well, that's just some people talkin' Your prison is walkin' through this world all alone.-Eagles

You got that right!

Still the best music.

Can you just hurry up already?

Now them memories come back to haunt me They haunt me like a curse Is a dream a lie if it don't come true Or is it something worse?-Bruce Springsteen