Still Here.

Later yesterday and today still I have this really weird headache: it's only on the right side of my head! Usually I have them it's on the entire head, not just on one side, making me wonder if it's maybe a stroke or aneurysm brewing?  I also experienced a Glitch In The Matrix yesterday as well: I was listening to the radio and they played the same song twice, back-to-back, as soon as it ended it played all over again and I felt like I was in a time warp or a deja-vu, and it's so windy it keeps setting off our security system as well; it sets off the alarm saying the doors are open and keeps beeping and it's soooooo annoying. My cough's also sooooooooooo baaaaaaaaaaad it kept waking me up during the night and I heard Stairway To Heaven twice yesterday,too!

...and I swear I also saw my mother in the dining room: a shadowy hazy version of her,anyway, and it was short and stout like her and had her same short white hair,too. She never said anything, just sort of quickly "floated" by.

Israel also bombed Syria yet again, killing innocent people using their usual rhetoric that they were "terrorists" who attacked them first( yeah.....riiiight...they were protesting their land being invaded) and yet no one says a thing or ever does anything, and I saw on the news real Christmas trees cost in the range of 130$ or so now and I can still remember when they were just 45$ and now fake ones are like 500$ or so and I just paid 200$ for my flocked tree 5 years or so ago. Things are just soooooooooooooo expensive now and keep going up in price and are so unaffordable now! Holy shit!

Yesterday Beja also came up to me and sniffed me and looked like he'd had some sort of revelation or realization and then he hopped up onto me and just laid on my chest nuzzling into my neck, and it was almost as if he'd suddenly remembered  me, that I was the one who had him first and loved him first and was his Person before the 31 YR old came along, or as if some curse or spell had been lifted off him. It was really weird but I'm grateful he remembered he once loved me.

Hopefully he'll still come back to me.

I still don’t get the concept behind life. What exactly are we here for?- Oku