Christmas Steve.

Today is Christmas Eve eve, which we call Christmas Steve.

Ha,ha, yeah....I know, we're weird.

My hubby also has 2 weeks off work  until the new year and I try not to allow myself to get excited about Christmas because then I feel almost guilty since my mother and Buddy are dead and no longer with us and this will be our first Christmas without them. It will also be our first Christmas with Beja though so at least that's something good. I also like to think my mother and Buddy will be together so neither of them will be alone.It's also sad seeing other people happy and celebrating the holidays with family and  loved ones and here I am all alone with nobody. I really wish I could trade places with them though and my hubby said it would be kind of cool if I died the same day my mother did, and if so, that would be on the 28th. I think I have a sinus infection now,too, with the stabbing sinus pain, dizziness, and chills.

Ugh.

Yesterday when the 31 YR old got back Beja somehow broke thru the barrier my hubby has blocking the stairs and he got upstairs despite his best efforts.trying to get up to him, and he said for Christmas him and his GF are having ham, turkey,and have 2 big bottles of 'fancy" booze; a peanut-flavour whiskey and a pistachio one and it shocked me that just 2 people could drink that much in just one day in one meal; you'd think 2L or so like that it would last for months,they must be alcoholics, and he said he also already read all his books for his course, both semesters, already, ahead of time, and someone on Twitter also referred to stabbing sinus pain behind the eye as sinus lightning and I thought it was just the perfect description, and some retard online also said cheddar cheese is a "low-class" cheese ,too, when actually it's the squeeze cheese in a tube or the cheese in the spray can that's low-class, not cheddar!  Duh!I also like feta cheese in small amounts, mixed with something else, just not too much as it's so salty.

I also saw a commercial and I swore it was Keanu Reeves in it but then thought to myself what would a Mega star like him be doing in a Rogers commercial in this shithole, but wow, did the guy ever really look like him, he could have been his clone; the resemblance was uncanny, and I looked into it and it turned out that I was right; it actually really was him so that's why!

HA!

So you put on your headphones and you blast your music, and you live your hell for a little while longer.-Charlotte Fredrick