Thumbelina.

I came across these old photos of Buddy the other day and it made me sad. I just miss him so much. There will never be another Buddy. He was one-of-a-kind and my Heart Dog and my soulmate. The 31 YR old also hasn't been home all week, giving Beja and I time to re-connect and hang out and now he's back to like how he used to be before he stole him away from me although I still know as soon as he comes back he'll abandon me in a heartbeat and go to him but once he moves out for good for school in a couple of weeks I'll have him back for good. I also call him my Thumbelina Dog  because he's so small and to get my attention he'll also run along beside me and bite and tug at the bottom of my pants legs(he's so funny!) and for The Twelve days Of Christmas song I also made up....On the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me a little brown and white Chihuahua....  and the best Christmas gift for me this year will be getting his love back again.

I also had my hubby pick me up a new bath sponge as the old one all unravelled and he comes back with this dinky little thing the size of a small apple and it's cute but not really that functional and it's sort of like trying to wash a hippo with a Q-Tip it's so small, and now my sinus headache is the worst and feels like ice picks in my skull and I think I might have permanant dents in my face too from pressing so hard on the pressure points and I also still  have the chills and sweats and am dizzy and have the bad cough and now my chest and ribs hurt. Sinus headaches are the worst and can almost get as bad as migraines.

uh,uh....

Yesterday my hubby also went and did his last-minute Christmas shopping, incl. stocking stuffers which we actually totally forgot about last year with my mother dying only we don't know where the stockings even are as that was my mother's department and she's no longer here to ask,  and now USA also attacked within Syria, saying they're hunting terrorists( always some excuse) as vengeance , just like Israel does, and how come when USA and Israel attacks Syria, for example, it's "just revenge" but if any other country pulled such a stunt it would be declared an act of war (and rightly so) ? They also say Rob Reiner's son who killed him and his wife is schizophrenic, which might help explain things and he was getting care and the doc was adjusting his meds and now he's in a 'fog" and not even really aware of what he did and can you just imagine  once his mind clears and he realizes  what he did?  I can't even imagine  the guilt of having to live with that for the rest of your life.

This is also the closest I could find to the original wallpaper our old Toronto house had, only it was a dark aqua colour. It probably had lead in it,too, ha,ha.It makes me sad how they got rid of most of the original wood, windows, etc. and natural classic beauty of the 1800's design it had and redid most of it. It does look much brighter now but I still liked it much better before, the way it was when we lived there. Why do they always have to go and get rid of an old house's character like that and modernize it? Our old house also sold for over a million $$$, so even we couldn't afford to live there anymore now. It's also sad that they just don't make/build things the way they used to. As I'm sitting here at my computer Beja also jumped up onto my lap to snuggle,too.

Just like he used to.

and I just love it.

And from the darkness comes a smile That reaches out for many miles Touchin' everyone No more shadows of the past Your spirit free to fly at last Shinin' in the sun.-Whitesnake