Doobage.

Here is my new doobage, or should that maybe be newbage (or better yet noobage?) ...New+ doobage....get it? I love making up new words like that, I don't know if it's the autism or because I'm weird, or just because it's creative and fun. (It's also more expensive at the new place, plus they don't deliver for under 85$ but what can I do?)I think they call them portmanteau.  Yesterday it was soooooooooooo windy out though( 100 KM/HR!) it was hard smoking my bong though as the wind kept putting out my light and blowing the nugs out but at least being mild I didn't need my hat and mitts and for once I wasn't freezing my ass off although I was being pelted with rain and almost blew away! It was so windy as well something kept loudly hitting and banging the windows I thought they were going to break and come smashing in but hopefully it was just the wind and not a tree. I also saw 2 squirrels f*cking in one of our trees(they're lucky they didn't get blown out!), and so much of the snow has all melted I can see our garden gnomes(which were hidden and buried) by the pool again.

I was also woken up from my nap yesterday by a sweet little Chihuahua licking my face and now the 31 YR old's not here anymore Beja hangs around me again and follows me around like he used to, it's like he remembers that he used to love me once and it's so nice to have him back again and I still know if the 31 YR old ever came back( for a visit,for example) he'd abandon me again and go off with him but at least for now he's mine again and yesterday I had this blinding headache sooooooooooo bad as well it also felt like a stabbing pain behind my left eye and I was really dizzy,too, and at times even blurry and double-vision, making me wonder if maybe I really DO have a brain tumour or something? We're also in a flight path and used to planes flying over our house but yesterday this Hercules was either flying too low or it was too loud as it just didn't sound "right" and I was worried it was going to crash, and my friend J) from grade 8) I found recently on Facebook she got fat now she's old now,too, even fatter than I did, as did many of my old friends and classmates,too, so now I don't feel so bad anymore.

Now it's milder and melting the outdoor lights finally defrosted and got unstuck so my hubby was able to get the rest of them down, incl. the light-up snowmen( shown here) much to my relief as not only is it incredibly tacky to keep them up but the longer they're out for the squirrels chew them up as well. My Twitter stats also said my page got 19.2K views in the past 7 days which I think must be good, although I also have no idea what the average is,either, and I heard there's going to be a new Jackass movie the end of June and I'm so excited! Here I am a 59 YR old woman but nothing makes me laugh like Jackass and Bam Margera will be back as well which is nice to see they invited their old friend back, esp. after all his addiction and legal troubles lately. I also haven't heard from the 31 YR old (other than he wants my hubby to bring him up his sheepskin blanket) if he's enjoying his new course (I hope he is though) but the youngest is( now done his first week) but it tires him out as he was asleep just past 9 pm the other night and normally he stays up until 1-2 am.

We just hide and don't dare to even share with anyone that we feel suicidal if we lose people , or we can't love them ourselves like we desperately hoped. Or just hide totally and don't dare to interact with almost anyone.-Viktoria Kiss