My Birthday.

I was originally going to post this tomorrow but we're supposed to get lots of snow so in case the power and/or Internet is down I'm doing it now instead. Won't it also be funny if the school buses are cancelled, on the first day back to school after the Christmas break and kids get an extra day off? HA! 

My birthday was ok, I guess, and I got thru it, even though even the kids that live here didn't even bother to wish me a Happy Birthday and other than the oldest I never heard from any of the others,either, but the good thing is it snowed(and I listened to Reggae all day) so even though I didn't get the snow I wanted on Christmas I got it for my birthday. The 31 YR old also moved into his dorm and took 4 big buckets with lids, 5 bags, a board for his wall to write on, and a vacuum cleaner.  He also said too bad he can't "dis-assemble" Beja and take him with him and I reminded him that he's my dog, NOT his and he said, But he loves me MORE! yet even so, he still belongs to me and he stays here.

He's all I have and he doesn't even want me to have him.

I feel so free now and a new sense of hope with the 31 YR old moved out now as well just like I did before when my mother moved in the LTC home, with my main stressor gone and I'm also glad to get Beja back again. This is also my second birthday without my mother as she died exactly a week before my last one and it's hard to believe that a whole year went by and 2025 came and went and she wasn't here to see it. Death isn't always tragic or sad,either, like when I die; sometimes it's a blessing.

Now Trump says he intends to invade Greenland as well, so who will be next? Us, perhaps? He reminds me of certain dictator in WWII that invaded country by country, one by one, across Europe, and I hope that this will finally be the fall of the Imperialist American Empire, just like the Persian, Babylonian, Greek, Roman, British, Empires ,etc. before them,  and I had Black Forest cake on the grocery list for my hubby to pick up as well and he comes back with some other stupid thing and I go, What is this shit? This doesn't look like Black Forest cake.... and I look at the label and it clearly said it was a strawberry cake and I frickin' *HATE* strawberries(so it's not like I'm even going to eat it!)which he knows but if he was going to get the wrong thing at least get something that I'd eat( a birthday cake would have been nice though) and I don't care what he does with it; I don't want it; he can shove it up his ass for all I care. I'm so tired of the doofus always getting the wrong thing because he's either too stupid or too lazy to bother to even read the label. His ears are also all clogged up with ear sap and he can't hear now and at least now he knows what it's like for me all the time and hopefully will stop mocking me "for being so deaf" now.

I also just loooove this beautiful fabric I think is brocade, and I've been waking up lately at 5 am and am more suicidal than usual, likely due to my birthday and the 31 YR old's now ex-GF has been stalking him as well so hopefully she won't find out where he is at the dorm, esp. since she also goes to the same college but if she does and won't leave him alone he can always just rub olive oil (she's allergic to)on his doorknob as a "repellent" to keep her away, as a form of defence since he doesn't have a gun. You do whatever you have to do to protect yourself from those that would do you harm. With him moved out  and not here Beja also napped with me today and it felt nice to have him back again. Now he's finally out he's NOT moving back,either; like a bird that leaves the nest; once you're out, you're out, and now I finally got Beja back I'm not going to let him take him away from me again.

My mental health depends on it.

That is enough of me for today.-Jack Zohar