Donut Asshole.

I had a sudden realization the other day:

You know the hole at the end of a donut where the cream oozes out?

It's the donut asshole! 😂😂

This morning it's also 1C(supposed to get up to 11C) and we have frost. My cough is also sooo bad when I inhaled it made a weird squeak sound and sounded like I'd swallowed the squeaker inside a dog toy. My Twitter also says I have 31.4K views in the past 7 days and yesterday I got 2 letters in the mail for my mother from the bank so I just wrote "Deseased: return to sender" but it worries me it's about her loan and they'll be coming after me next(as her heir) and on the radio they asked, "When is the last time you smiled?" and it made me sad to realize it was years ago.

I also saw this the other day and it brought back so many happy nostalgic childhood memories. I used to LOVE doing Connect-The-Dot puzzles. Back in the 70s we didn't have the Internet to entertain us.I even had books of them and esp. remember doing them at the cottage or on road trips with my cousins. Even though I suck at math I can  still count and I always thought they were fun and was always excited to see what the picture ended up being. Sometimes you could guess ahead of time but sometimes not. I've always been a "loner" even as a kid,too, as far back as I can remember, even in grade 2 I can still clearly remember at recess sitting up on a roof away from the schoolyard in the trees talking to the squirrels. Even though I did have friends I played with I still always preferred animals or by myself.

 I also wonder if I might have Parkinsons disease with my worsening symptoms and pain and now I have a nice suntan on my face, nice and brown now from being outside so much it's nice and brown so I'm ready for my new passport photo and won't look so pale and washed away. I also saw this( below) from the old Degrassi Jr. High  and Degrassi High shows I used to watch over 20-some years ago. I really liked that show which is odd too since it's Canadian and Canadian stuff usually sucks but this one was actually good.

All I ever did was try to protect my kids and keep them safe from danger and the bad influences of the world as well but eventually still ended up losing them to the world ,anyway (once they moved out for university) and didn't end up good people as adults and NOT the way I raised them and someone said I was "over-protective" and "sheltered" them and warned them the world was "out to 'get' them" and yelled at them for things that really weren't bad but "normal", etc. they discovered once they "got out into the 'Real world'" but I didn't mean to be controlling or over-protective; just trying to keep them safe like a mother is supposed to do  and raise them right and they weren't "sheltered"; they went to homeschooling events & activities, church youth groups, Cubs, Cadets, Bible camp, Cadet camp, etc. 

 In our case we really did  have an enemy that endangered us and we had to leave Ottawa(although they might have been too young to remember it but I'll never forget) even my own lawyer strongly advised we might want to just disappear, and even if society  thinks it's "normal" to lie, cheat, steal, be a whore, a pedophile, a pervert, a drunk, a racist, a sexist, a cheater, into the occult, etc. *I* DON'T  and I at least tried to raise my kids to be better people.

Having kids not only ruined my life but also my relationships with my hubby and even with my own mother,too.

It was a dream that turned into a nightmare.

Below is also the "ominous"-looking sky we had last night I was so sure we were going to get a big storm.....but nothing.

I’m not meant to be loved.-Pinkst4r